O Meri Christmas

It was 25th December 00:30 am and little Neha was waiting for her dad to return from the office. She was sure he would bring Santa Claus along with him and thus was very excited. Despite everybody's persuasion she resisted to go to bed and insisted on keeping socks at the door and window just in case Santa passes by and drops anything on them.

Neha's father returned . Neha rushed towards him asking "Dady, dady you have brought the Santa Claus too?" Tired and stressed he took her in his arms and said "No dear Santa refused to come today.You are still awake at this time? So Santa got upset and said he wont come."

To this little Neha started crying. Neha's mother took her to bed. When she returned to the drawing room she scolded her husband "Why did you say this to her?She is only 9 years old . She waited the whole day for Santa Claus. You could have brought something for her instead of those harsh words. Suraj dont throw your frustrations on the little kid. "

Suraj replied " I am sorry Sheetal. But what will I do . My boss gave me so much work I did not get  time to buy a gift for her. I pleaded him that I need to go out its Christmas eve but that man only listens to his boss and not his reportees."
Sheetal said" Ok fine now. Go and change  and then lets have the dinner."

They slept after dinner at around 1:15 am. But little Neha was still awake. She was crying. She could not make out that Santa was upset at her.Slowly she fall  asleep.

An hour or two passed. There was a sound of the calling bell. Neha woke up suddenly. She thought "Its Santa for sure."

She rushed out of the bed , switched on all the lights of the hall and opened the main door. To her utter amazement there stood a man dressed in red clothes, red cap having a big white beard and carrying a fat red rucksack.

Overjoyed with happiness Neha screamed at the top of her voice  " Mom, Daddy , Bhaiya see who have come...Its Santa Claus." Hearing little Neha scream Suraj and Sheetal rushed to the hall.

To their amazement they found little Neha in the arms of a tall,fat man who dressed somewhat like a Santa Claus. Suraj shouted "Who are you and what are you doing at our house.Why have you picked up my daughter. Keep her down or I will call the police."

To this the man put down Neha and said "Relax, relax I am Santa Claus. I have only come here to give you and your family Christmas presents. Here you are " and he gave one big gift to Neha,two medium sized gifts to her parents and little one for Neha's brother who stood behind his parents.

Santa said"May God bless you all and may only happiness prevails in your life. Let all your wishes get fulfilled."

Suraj replied" Not aplicable for me.My boss is a devil. Always with a hunter after me. No matter how much I work he doesnt give me a leave, I cant buy gifts for my daughter, cant spend time with my family. If you are a real Santa please do something about him. That man is simply crazy. "

Santa god puzzled "Wait wait I am not God I am only Santa I..."
Suraj interrupted "Whoever you are please help me..Either get me another job or kill that man or send him to a mental asylum..Choice is yours."

Santa said "haaaaaaa.."

Sheetal interrupted" Hey Santa please do something about his boss. he doesnt give him increment.I cant do shopping properly.I loved a new diamond necklace set at the nearby jewellery shop but couldnt buy it.Again the kids are growing and we need money for their future. Please give him increment so that I can fulfill all my wishes."

Neha's brother Neeraj appeared from behind and whispered in Santa's ear. "Hey Santa my dad's boss's daughter is my classmate.She is damm pretty and damm hot.Please make her my girlfriend...Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee.."

Santa was utterly surprised . He finally said " I think the only problem in all of your life is your boss. But you also have to understand that it is Christmas and we should make merry for what we have and not think about problems. Problems are there in everyone's life.Wish you all a Merry Christmas and not Meri Christmas. Dont worry I will try to fix things whatever possible.Till then have a good night.. Be cool and keep your worries away."

As Santa was making his way towards the door little Neha pulled him and said "Santa I havent said my wish yet why are leaving so early?"

Santa bent down and asked "Yes darling go ahead...You too have a complaint on your dad's boss?"

Neha replied "No I just want my dad to be happy. He is very tired and overstressed these days. His health is deteriorating and mum has to look after everything.She also gets very tired. Please give them rest,peace and happiness. "

Santa smiled "Hmmm....you are a very nice and intelligent girl."

Santa left and Neha waved at him and slowly said"do come again soon with lots of gifts..."

The next morning Suraj was late for his office. Though it was Christmas Day yet he had to go to office. He was afraid his boss is going to kill him.

The moment he entered his boss's room he started apologizing.."Sorry boss I am late today there was huge traffic.I will start working just now ..Dont worry we will make it..."

His boss said "Hey Suraj calm down man...Work can be done slowly ...Between for the past few days you have worked really fantastic..I had a talk with the highemanagement and we have decided to promote you. Congratulations . And since a lot of you leaves are pending its my advice that you should go for a vacation with your family. After you join you can start working.."

Suraj was awestruck.He couldnt believe his ears. What happened to his boss? Santa really did any magic on him? He was clueless.

He walked out of the room. As he made way towards his cabin he asked one of his friends what happened to his boss. His friend replied " Boss lost his  bet and was punished to disguise as a Santa Claus and go to every employees home and give them presents. He did that and today he is changed..Dunno why...Actually I didnt open the door last night and I cant say about others......

A life full of regrets

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 It was a bright sunny morning. Anjali woke up suddenly after having a bad dream.She sat on the bed and slowly realised she was dreaming. And a couple of days later she is getting married . Slowly she got up and went in front of her window. The Sun was shining brightly and the birds were chirping. It was a beautiful morning. Anjali thought to herself "I dont know what I am doing and why ." She was getting married to a doctor settled in New York. She never wanted to get married to a high profile guy. She wanted a simple, loving and caring husband who can understand her and love her more than anybody else in this world. But call it destiny or anything she was hurt beyond she could tolerate.
Anjali started thinking of her dreams. Suddenly her whole past became alive in front of her eyes. "It was as if yesterday that I was in college. I was happy to have such a nice friend as Piyush. He was the one who made me strive the difficult situations. Without him I wouldnt have been able to figure out the right direction. I slowly liked him and then fell in love . We got engaged and  our world changed. I was never as happy before. I always took the pride that I have selected the most right guy for me. I never wanted too much from him. Everything was going fine . The college ended and a new life started. We started doing jobs. Piyush being an intelligent boy was offered a job with a very high pay package. He shifted to Bangalore and I was in Mumbai. We started talking on the phone. Piyush had a tremendous work pressure. And being a meritorious student his family wanted him to study more. Slowly the pressure from his family and that from the work soon showed in our relationship too. We started quarrelling almost everyday. I dont remember how many sleepless nights I have passed crying for him. One day he told me he was going to US for doing masters.I was happy for him. I tried to calculate the time after how many years will his studies end and we could get married. Slowly time passed by and his time to go to US came closer. He came to Mumbai to meet me for the last time. We had a gala time then. We went to movies,to shopping malls,to parks. He promised me that he will return within 2 years . He knew that I am too much sensitive and hence warned me in advance that it might take some time for him to settle in US. Once he is done we could do video chatting on the internet.  I believed him blindly. He left in the next month. I waited for his mails,calls. I wrote to him several times. But no reply came. I thought may be he is too busy right now. Another month passed by. I got no reply from him. I started worrying. He used to tell me that he will never contact any of his friend once he leaves for US. I used to think that he is saying this in anger. I never wanted it to become true. As more days passed by I started thinking that those words were indeed true. He meant them completely.

I chatted with other friends over the net and asked them if they have any news of him. Nobody knew.I kept consoling myself that I must be thinking too much. Then one day my roommate called me and said she had chatted with him on facebook. I was shocked. Why the hell he didnt reply to my mails when he got the internet? Was my roomie more important than me? I asked her to inform me the next time she chats with him. They again chatted in the next month. My roommate sent  me the chat and this time I could not control my tears. I knew everything was over. I felt betrayed. How could he do this to me? He could have told me that he wants to break up. Why did he give me false assurance? From that day onwards things were never same as before. I changed completely. I did not hang out with friends. I did not contact them. I was not very regular on facebook. Whenever I came online I used to check his profile. Everyday in the morning I used to check my gmail with a slightest hope that he might reply to me. Years passed by but not a single reply has come. My parents wanted me to get married. And they chose a groom for me. The boy is nice. He is doctor in US. He was different than Piyush. Quiet handsome,smart  and well mannered. But I could not forget Piyush. He was my first love. a man whom I have loved and trusted more than myself and who did not think for a second time before betraying me."

By thinking this tears rolled down from Anjali's face. Her marriage was a compromise. She  is getting married only because of her parents. She is not sure if she could love her husband just like Piyush. Anjali slowly turned  away from the window and went to the Puja ghar. She folded hands in front of the GOD and asked "I once thought I am the luckiest person in this world who have made no mistake in selecting her life partner. I now regret the day I befriended him. I now regret that I fell for him. But what was my mistake that you punished me like this?"
As Anjali was saying this to her GOD her mother came and saw her daughter crying ."What happened beta?Why are you standing here at this time?Is everything ok?" Anjali said "Yes Ma" and left.

The day of her marriage arrived. As Anjali was getting ready  she remembered Piyush's words. How he said he would love to see her in bridal dress. As she wore her necklace she thought how Piyush once said that she would look beautiful in that jewellery. She did look gorgeous. But there was no Piyush to appreciate that. All her friends arrived at her wedding but Piyush was missing. With a heavy heart and a compromising attitude towards life Anjali slowly walked to the Mandap thinking of her past dreams which were shattered by the brutal blows of reality.

I once saw a picture where Hema Malini insults Amitabh Bacchan saying that he doesnt have a heart. Amit ji replied "Have you ever heard of any woman dying of heart attack without a few exceptions? We men mostly die of heart attacks because we have hearts." Even Chetan Bhagat's all time best selling novels depicts the fact that a girl plays with a boy's emotion and then she leaves him. But when a heart is broken the pain felt is same in case of the girl as it is in case of the guy. The pain of backstabbing is the same for both the genders and it will last for the lifetime no matter how much life gives you happiness. 

Move on or Run away?

A few months back Farhan Akhtar's film Zindagi Milegi Na Dobara got released. The movie was first named as "Running away from the Bull." But to make the Indian Audience more comfortable a line from Farhan Akhtar's song Rock On was finalised. I was very eager to watch this movie as Hrithik Roshan is my all time favourite. But unfortunately I saw it much later.
The movie is a complete entertainer. I always like the kind of story Farhan Akhtar tries to tell. The director Zoya Akhtar's debut film Luck by Chance also was one of such kind. ZMND showed the vivid scenary of  Spain, the different festivals like the La Tomatina,Running Away From the Bull, the different sports like scooba diving etc. But apart from all these things it showed how to enjoy your life keeping aside all your work,worries etc.It emphasised specially on one point. When the needs of two persons engaged in a relationship clashes, they decide to part ways. And this happened in all the 3's lives. Hrithik Roshan left his girlfriend as her wishes,expectations came in his way of business and money making. Farhan Akhtar's father played by Naseeruddin Shah  left his mother Deepti Naval when she was expecting a baby. The reason is Naseeruddin was not ready then to take the responsibility of a child, to start a family. He wanted to go on enjoying his llife , painting with his brushes and make money. Abhay Deol did not want to marry his fiancée as he felt she had changed completly. The change was only that the girl who valued her job very much wanted to value her life after marriage. But Abhay Deol just simply could not get that idea.

So there goes their famous dialogues" We parted because I wanted something and she wanted something else." Well Farhan Akhtar made no mistakes in portraying the exact new generation or Gen Y. But if we follow this principle are we happy at the end, do we gain everything that we have been looking for? After scooba diving  Hrithik Roshan  started crying when he remembered how harshly he had once said to his girlfriend. Money,career matter most. But does keeping relationship means we will travel together as long as u sing in my notes. The moment u start tuning different I will bid adieu to you?

This particular issue if looked from a different side then it is better as it is hard to keep up with a person who doesnot value your sentiments. But one question still exists are we calling it as moving on or running away? Around 90% people will say it is moving on but deeper in their heart they know the truth is Running away.

What hails to be an Engineer

Engineering--the most talked about study and profession chosen now a days. In the late 90s or before that when there were only few colleges that used to teach engineering and few companies who recruited engineers, engineering had its own value, its own prestige. With the commencement of IT companies be it Indian or American the urge to study engineering increased like anything. Today it is a common name. Whether you like it or not u have to be an engineer after u pass ur +2. The number of colleges has increased so much and the admission to the courses has been lowered so much that many students who do not even know what they are studying and why unfortunately are emerging as successful engineers. The word 'successful' means qualified in terms of studies not in terms of jobs.

And as a result a lot of comedies happen around us.
Comedy No 1
As soon as your Higher Secondary results and Competitive exams results are out all ur relatives,neighbours,relative's relative ---all of whom never bothered to ask about u all through your life, suddenly become too much interested in your marks . They keep on pestering the topic no matter how reluctant you are in revealing what you are actually upto.

Comedy No 2
All of ur sudden appeared well wishers are more interested in the college you are admitted to and the course you are taking. Dont think people are delighted to hear that you are being admitted to an engineering college specially if you are coming from a family where you are the first lady engineer. People will now start giving their advice.(They do not have any expertise in the field of engineering nor any knowledge about the type of jobs engineers have to do yet they consider themselves as KNOW-IT-ALL , courtesy the long gossips they have with their associated people) .

Comedy No 3
The college where you have been admitted ,its location and specifically the companies that visit their campus for student recruitment is a BIG question hovering in their mind 24X7. No matter what their children have done in their lives, whether they are successful or not it is the common habit of almost  every mortal human being to know whether your college gets a campus recruitment or not. If yes then you are admitted to a good college . If no then forget it your degree is not worth and you are worthless.

Comedy No 4
For the next 3 years you are left in peace, the people will suddenly vanish and you will carry out your studies. But they do not vanish completely. If you stay in a hostel and when you visit ur home at the end of a semester the evil relatives will appear and will start asking you about ur studies. Dont think they are showing concern about you. Because at the end they will surely ask you when will your campus recruitment start? Are you getting good marks enough? My niece studied from an engineering college and now she is working in an MNC. She is now in Pune another nephew of mine is now in New York and so on.....Some even ask how much did you get in your semester? If you say  I got above 70% they will give you a curt smile . Did you cross 80% ever? (OMG do you ever know what subjects I had this semester and how tough they were?) If your answer is yes then they reply"then there is a possibility that you will get a job"( As if  the marks only speaks)

Comedy No 5
The dreaded final year . Well job is a luck and all your competitors are as good as you are . So it is always a tough job to compete. Sometimes the requirement of the company is less , sometimes it is merely a betrayal by the luck. But whatever it is it will not bring peace to your mind unless you get a job. Your family and all those SUDDEN well wishers will make your life as hell. You will not be able to go out freely as you will always encounter one person who is keenly interested in your job.If you do get a job they will ask about ur salary,ur posting and will congratulate you briefly and will never appear again. But if you fail to do so they will nag you to death. They will start telling things as if it is ur brain that has got nothing in it .Either you are 3rd class in ur studies or ur not smart enough to bag a job.Frustrations will kill you from inside and specially what will upset you the most is the sad faces of ur parents who also had to be a part of all this.

Comedy No 6
You got a job. You inform your well wishers. They will give u a false impression of being happy for you. They will burn from jealousy. Now all set and you are back to ur own life. After a year or 2 they again appear asking you whether you have ever been to onsite. No matter how much you explain to them they never understand."My sister-in-law's son also works in the same company but he has been to New York,France,Spain .... so many times why is that they are not sending you?" Now who will make them understand. After all they will not understand.

Comedy No 7
"Do you know my sister's daughter? Her name is Payal . She also works where you work . In the same building." God there are thousands of employees working under one roof. How am I supposed to know each one of them? Then they will answer " You people are so hi-fi you might not be knowing them or even try to know them"

Comedy No 8
"How much did you get ur increment? did you get a good appraisal?" Do you ever know what is an appraisal?

Comedy No 9
"Why are you in the same company for the past 5-6 years? people generally jump from one to another and thus get good salary increment." Can I do the thinking please? Its my job afterall and I am its best judge.

Comedy No 10
If it a recession going on , the neighbourhood aunty would ask your mother "Is you son/daughter still working (or has she/he been sacked)? Why ask so ? Would you be happy enough if the answer is yes or would you be kind enough to offer him/her another job?


Like on the comedies go on year after year. Sometimes I do think dont these people have any work on their own? I remember it was my brother's reception. Everyone who were invited , was too concern about where I work. After wishing my brother and my sister-in-law the first thing they said was to ask me "What are doing now dear?" I just thought I am so lucky to be able to answer them or else I would have to bury my face somewhere.

Unfortunately or fortunately people will go on nagging like this. And specially it is with the ENGINEERS. Though now-a-days people do not respect its value as before yet they do not stop from being jealous of them too.

Iti Mrinalini--Film Review

In our busy day to day chores we hardly get a time to sit back and think of others. Iti Mrinali is a Bengali film released recently directed by veteran Bengali actress Aparna Sen.The casts are Konkona Sen Sharma,Rajat Kapoor etc. The film depicts the life of an actress as  an unfinished letter and thus the name of the film. 'Iti' is a Bengali word which we used to write at the end of a letter. Mrinalini is the name of the character.

The film starts with the veteran actress Aparna Sen writing her suicide note and then slowly the film flashes back to the past. A heroine no matter how old can she be would never want to leave her position,her fame. She would hate to do a side role. Actually the bitter truth is that no matter how great actress can u be at ur time but slowly when u become older and make space for the new faces no longer does the media or the people recognizes you. You are then just an experienced artist. And thats what happened to Mrinalini. It was the primiere of  new film released where she was given an elderly role but the media was more interested with the heroine. And again she had an intimate relation with the director, who also promised her to cast as a heroine in his next film. But the producer announced the new young heroine to be the lead actress in their upcoming film. Depressed Mrinalini set herself aside from the launch party. She was too shocked to hear the director saying " U are a veteran and u know u r an old face." She decided to end her life.

Amidst the sea of sadness Mrinalini started recollecting her olden days. She ransacked her old boxes and started looking at her old and precious possessions. The film rolled back to her college days when the young Mrinalini played by Konkona Sen Sharma  and her friends were discussing over various poems. She was a student of presidency college and the camera revealed the old College Street of Kolkata , the nostalgic environment of Indian Coffee House , the trams and the rickshaws. Mrinalini's then boyfriend was a Naxal and was killed by the police. Mrinalini moved on in her life and chose acting as her career. She got an offer to work with one of the finest directors and was awarded for her excellence. The film also showed rivalry between the actors.Mrinalini was casted off  of a film where the director chose another famous actress. But nothing stopped Mrinalini to become a famous name. She worked hard and was even got very much involved with her first director played by Rajat Kapoor. She had a baby daughter who was adopted by her brother and sister-in-law. But ultimately their relation broke as Rajat Kapoor was unable to leave his wife and children. At that time another writer cum friend played by Kaushik Sen became her support.

Everything was going fine. But destiny snatched away her daughter. She was on the verge of committing suicide but death was not so easy. Slowly slowly the time went by and she retired herself from the limelight. She refused many directors until a very tempting offer urged her to work again. And while shooting for the film the set caught fire and she lost her only support ,her dresser whom she loved like anything. 

Mrinalini was so engrossed in her past that she didnt see that the rainy night has made its place for the dawn. Suddenly an sms in her mobile conveying the message of arrival of her dear friend aroused a new hope in her heart. She deferred her idea of suicide and went out for a morning walk with her pet dog. But destiny had something else in store. A boy was chased by gangsters. The boy ran past her but accidentally the bullet shot by the gangsters hit Mrinalini.

Though the end could have been made better yet the film was good. The film showed almost many truths of .the film industry. Brilliant acting by Aparna Sen,Konkona Sen Sharma & Rajat kapoor. It was worth watching.

I am Prisoner # 57257

It was 15th Aug 2008. Anand got his release from the Central Jail. It was an independence day for him too. 10 yrs have passed by. Now he was free. He expected some familiar faces outside jail. But no one turned up.

Slowly walking by the road that leads to his house Anand was comparing the present with the past. The time he had last seen this place.The place has changed a lot but its people are the same. As he walked passed by many shops everybody was staring at him. He heard someone whispering " Isnt the man Anand who was in jail for 10 years in account of murder?" Anand saw an old man at a tea stall and went towards him."How are u uncle? And how is everyone at your home? How is Kishore? Is he doing his studies well?" The man was astonished. He looked sideways and found people staring at him in curiosity. He slowly replied "Oh it is you Anand. So you finally got released from the jail?" Anand replied " Yes uncle I got my release today." The old man said" Good. I hope this time you have changed & your family will not be ashamed of you again." Anand was shocked. He was not a murderer. He was framed. He did not want to  kill the man who put a fire at their shop . He just wanted to frighten him. He was young and foolish and did exactly what came to his mind. He did not pull the trigger. It was an accident. An accident from a young boy of 25 years. His family could  not afford a lawyer. So his case went unheard  and he was sentenced to jail. His father died in shock. His mother was left with his younger brother and 2 younger sisters.

Anand smiled and said "Yes uncle this time I will be careful." And he moved on. He went near his house and found a big pandal. There was some kind of celebrations going on. He went inside and found it was a marriage ceremony. It was the marriage of his younger sister Sheetal. The people were busy . Nobody noticed him coming. As he progressed towards the main door a young lady asked him "Who are you? What do you want?" Anand was surprised " I am sorry I could not recognize you. Well. this is my home and ..." The lady replied "Your home? Are you nuts? " She called for her husband. To Anand's utter surprise her husband was none other than his younger brother Vinod.  Vinod was surprised too. He could not recognize his own brother. He slowly said " Hello Bhaiya. How r u ?" Anand was so happy that he went to embrace his brither but Vinod denied. Anand said " I am fine. You have grown up bhai.. You have married also. How is everyone? How is Ma? And about Pooja and sheetal? Vinod said " Ma left us 2 yrs back. Pooja has been married for 3 years and lives in Delhi . She has a son of 5 months old. Sheetal is getting  married today to an engineer. I am a doctor at the Govt Hospital. Meet Neha. She is my wife and a child specialist."

Anad was very happy. Tears ran from his eyes. "Oh wonderful bhai. You people have grown up. But y didnt u tell me about Ma? Y didnt u come to meet me bhai?" Vinod said " How could I come bhaiya? We were left with nothing when you got jailed. Instead of supporting your family you killed a man. You left us with no hope. Do you have any idea what we went through? How we have survived let alone our studies? We had problems even now? Pooja was not getting married because of your scandal. Thank God we finally got a good fellow. "

Anand said slowly "Where is Sheetal ? I want to see her." And was about to advance towards the main door. To this Vinod forbade "Please bhaiya I am requesting you . Do not disturb our happiness anymore. Not on this day. I do not want Sheetal's marriage to break just because of you. "He folded his hands in front of him.

Anand was too shocked to say anything, He then said slowly " Ok bhai . Dont worry . I will not ruin your happiness." And by saying so he wept. Vinod left with his wife showing him the door. Anand slowly walked out of the door weeping.

He was cursing himself saying "I am no longer their .They do not want me .Only Ma could have believed me .She is now dead and I am too. What would I do now? How would I make them believe? Please God bless my family,bless my little sister. Let her be happy. I will go away from their life."

As he was walking he noticed a young married woman crossing the road with her husband . He recognized her to be his ex-love Lata. He thought "Lata is married too. Good for her." Lata was waiting in front of a chemist while her husband went to get some medicines. She saw Anand and moved towards him ."How r u Anand ? When did u get out?" Anand was happy. At least Lata will not think him to be a criminal. He said "I am fine Lata. How r u ? " Lata replied"I am fine and happily married to an advocated for 3 years. I am very happy  so much so that I would never have been had I married a murderer."
Anand was shocked. Finally Lata too thought him to be a criminal. He remebered Lata saying  in jail "Dont worry Anand I know u are innocent. I am there for u . Will be there always with you." Time change everything.
Lata's husband came out of the chemist and she left with him. Anand stood there rooted to the ground unable to move. The society had closed all its doors to him. Nobody believed him. Anand Sharma had ceased to exist.

He went to a park and sat on a bench for a long time. In the late evening he checked in a hotel. WHen the receptionist asked him "Whats your name?" He replied " I am Prisoner # 57257 "

An Encounter with God

It was raining outside. Tina was sitting at her drawing room reading a book. She was sad and thus kept looking outside the window. She could not concentrate on the book. She continued to pray to God "Why has such things happened to me? Why do u not provide me any answer? What have I done to u?
For the past few days Tina was upset with her friends and boyfriend. She was home on a vacation and is not enjoying it at all. Her parents are worried as she doesnt go out , stays in her room on her own. She just cries and stares at the picture of God in her small ,tidy and cosy bedroom.
It was one such day when Tina's parents were asleep and she continued to read story books. She finds them to be her best friends. At least they will never leave her,never argue with her, but will always give her company.As the rain started Tina went to the drawing room to get a better view of rain. But she was sad. She badly wanted the things to be sorted out. She was hurt and heart broken.
It was 2 o' clock at night. Suddenly Tina noticed a tall,fair and handsome man, dressed in blue denim jeans and a red Tshirt, sitting in the sofa facing her.

Man: Hello Tina.. Were u calling me?
Tina: Why on earth shall I call u ? Who are u ? How did u enter my house? Go away or I shall call my dad.
Man: Relax relax..  U know me actually.. I am God.
Tina: God?? What nonsense is that?
Man: Why ? Cant I be one?
Tina: No
Man: Why?
Tina: Because..because u dont look like one..
Man: How do God look like?
Tina: U are not like the one I have posters and statues?
Man: Tina , u read a lot of book dont u ?
Tina( being confused): Yes... so?
Man: U have read Chetan Bhagat's " One night at the call centre"?
Tina: Ya.(thinking what on earth does this man trying to say)
Man: Well then y r u confused? The world can get modern why cant I? After all guys and gals at your age will not like the one u have posters and statues..Isnt it? Dont I look cool in this outfit?
Tina: Ha..............Well ya u do look nice..
Man: Then? 
Tina: No I was just confused.. Well why are so late when I calling u for so many days?You should have come before dont u ?
Man:  U see I have loads of work. Today I was free so I came.. So tell me hows life?
Tina:  U are God. U should be knowing.
Man: Well I want to hear it from u .. Tell me..
Tina: Not good at all. 
Man: Why?
Tina: I am having problems with my boyfriend. He has hurt me. I think the relationship is going to be end. 
Tina cried again and continued. 
I am having problems with my friends too. They dont understand me. They blame me for things I have not done. I am alone. I have no one.
Man( smiling a little): Hey Tina u r a brave girl.First stop crying. Tears are very precious u know. Somebody may not like it.
Tina: Who will not like it?
Man: Ur  Boyfriend .
Tina: He is the one who makes me cry. Had he cared enough for me I would have never cried.
Man: Well .. he do cares for u and u know that very well. U know the solutions to every problem of urs.
Tina: No I dont.
Man: Yes u do. Think how many times have I told u to call hem up and patch up . How many times have I told u to call ur friends and talk to them?
Tina:Why is that I will go every time and patch up with everyone?
Man: Whats wrong in that? U have done that earlier too.
Tina: Yes but not this time. This time the fault was not mine but theirs. They should be sorry not me.My boyfriend always hurt me and I patch up for that and he takes me for granted.My friends too think the same. Despite knowing everything u are telling me to go?
Man: My dear u are the bravest of all of them. It takes a lot of courage to forgive,a lot more to forget. And nobody but u only can do that. And before that let me tell u trust ur love, trust ur friendship and trust me. I have been saying these simple words since ages but people are always stuck with the same  problem. If something  goes right they dont bother and if something is wrong they blame me. My dear dont take ur problems to be so big and continue to weep. Think about the problems others face. U are blessed in comparison to them. Be happy with what u have. Who said u are alone? Do I leave u when u need me? Dont I comfort u ? Dont I fix everything. Then y bother? I am ur best friend. I am here with u ? Y do u fear? Be cool.:P
Tina: What about my tears? What about the pain I faced? Shall I forget everything?
Man:Oh come on......Its nothing. Ur boyfriend is also as much hurt as u r. But he cannot say that. Ur friends are hurt too.Dont count these things. Life is too short.Live it.Be happy.Dont think so much.
Tina: How do u manage to remain so cool?
Man(laughingly): Because I am God. I have huge task.. A task no one can imagine. 
Tina: And you want me to forget everything?
Man: Let me ask u a question.. U do a lot of facebook dont u ?
Tina: Yes I do..so what?
Man: Well there is an application "God wants you to know". U follow it religiously r8?
Tina: Yes
Man: There I have told u one day that u become what ur mind makes u ? Tell me dear do u gain anything by clinging to ur miseries? Take the first step. I am there. I am sure u will thank me for this.:P
Tina: Ok..
Man: And one more thing. Whenever u r sad just think I am there listening to u ,beside u  as always. So be relaxed.
Tina: How will I live if my relation breaks with him?
Man: If u love each other truly it wont break.Love is not so weak u know.
Tina: If it is so then how come Rahul's girlfriend left him after 3 years of relationship? What have u done to console him?
Man: U will see. Rahul will have a better life. I am not a betrayer. 


Well Ok then sweetheart smile and just think the world is urs. Remove the tensions and the worries. Be cool and relax.Do remember what I said and do act accordingly.. U will get everything back.Its time for me to leave somebody else is waiting for me.Bye .. Good night.
Tina: No no dont go..stay sometime more..Please.............

And with that Tina fell from the sofa. She opened her eyes. It was a bright sunny morning. She was dreaming. She washed her face and with full confidence started her day on God's command.Everything was sorted out and Tina could not help thanking God.

The problems are many but solution is always simple. We know what to do but how many of us actually follow that?How many of us listen to our inner voice? 

"U are Beautiful"

It was the farewell day of their college. Four years seems to have passed off on a whisk. Nisha,Anju ,Vineet and Akash were very sad as the college will end soon. It seems as if it was yesterday only when they have arrived at the college as a first year, with an emotion mixed with sadness of leaving their home and excitement of getting a good engineering college. They didnt know anyone. Slowly they became friends...rather best friends...

Nisha was smart,beautiful,thin and tall. Needless to say a lot of boys want her but she was not ready to be caught up in a relation..Again she was not the person who can turn down their requests. She had a number of male friends and enjoyed all their help and parties.Anju was a simple girl whose life had nothing special in it. She was home sick. She was average looking , loved to make friends. But to her dismay she was misunderstood a number of times. Vineet was tall,fair good looking. Many girls liked him. Akash was smart too but his sense of humour made him the most popular guy.

4 of them had great time together. Used to sit at the backbenches and laugh at the jokes made by Akash. They used to party and visit many places.Used to participate in evry competitions.Danced together at the college fest. They were famous for their friendship.Vineet had a sense of liking towards Nisha. Nisha too used to take advantage of that. She took Vineet's help whenever she needed specially during the exams. Anju liked Vineet from the first day.She never knew what those feelings meant until she discovered she is in love with him.
In their 3rd year Anju decided to confess her feelings to Vineet on Valentine's Day. She called up Vineet the night before and asked him to meet her at the college seminar room. Vineet arived on time. Both started talking. Meanwhile Anju asked him what kind of girl he like.Vineet replied " I want a beautiful girl, whom I can admire my entire life." Anju was heartbroken. She knew Vineet will never like him. She asked" Is there anyone in your mind" He replied "yes and she is from our batch." Anju knew it was Nisha. She thought"Nisha is very lucky to get him " She smiled. Vineet asked her "y  r  u asking me these thing?" She said "we are best friends and maybe I can get you wht u want." He said "actually I was also thinking of saying these things to u but couldnt undesrtand how to say,how would u react..I mean u r not that type of girl" Anju replied sadly"ya i am not that type of girl" Vineet said"Anju only u can help me in this ..No one else can."Anju said"I promise u yaar I will try my best to give u what u want....Bye for now and Happy Valentine's Day"
She left ... Nobody could see her tears,nobody knew how she felt. From that day onwards she tried to convince Nisha about Vineet. She even left them alone in the classes  and sat somewhere else with Akash. Akash understood everything. But he didnt say much. Vineet and Nisha started to go out together. But Nisha never loved Vineet. She used him to make her things done. Anju tried a number of times to make her understand but in vain.

It was their farewell day. Everyone was dressed in their best.. The party was about to begin. Vineet and Akash was dressed in Black Suit  were both looking very handsome. Anju was dressed in  a whinte chiffon saree  with simple ornaments which made her look like a princess. Nisha was dressed in a blue silk saree witha  backless blouse and a heavy makeup which made her look gorgeous. Every eyes were on Nisha.The party began. The professors wished their students a bright future. There were many competitions,a fashon show, great food ,drinks.....
Meanwhile Anju stood in a corner and started crying.Vineet on seeing it came near her
"Y r u crying?"
"will miss u all yaar."
"we r not going anywhere just the college is ending.Comeon Anju we will keep in touch."
"ya.."
"Bye d way u didnt tell me the girl's name that day.."
"Aahh...ya..u didnt ask also"
"I knew it was Nisha r8?? Well I tried my best to make her come closer to u...any positive result?"
"How can it yield positive result when u r wrong at the very beginning?"
"What do u mean?"
Vineet took Anju's hand and said" I meant that it was not Nisha whom I liked.It was you U mistook it to be her."
Anju said" But u said u wanted a beautiful girl whom u can admire for ur entire life"
Vineet said" Yes I did. And that one was u. U r Beautiful Anju. U r the one who loved me without any condition. Who wanted the best for me. Who helped me with everything. Who cared for me like anything. It was me who was stupid. Nisha is only beautiful from outside.. Her inside is very ugly.. U r the world's most beautiful girl becoz ur heart is very beautiful. That day I intended to mean this only but u couldnt understand. Who can help me in this matter other than u?"
Anju was in tears.. She couldnt believe what at she just heard.Vineet wiped her tears and said softly "I love u Anju..Will u marry me?"
Anju couldnt say anything only cried and nodded her head.

How safe is our Social Networking Sites

I was in my 1st year at college when I first heard of Social Networking sites. I never knew what was Social networking sites meant. I found it extremely interesting and was addicted to it like anything. I communicated with lots of my school friends and even those with whom I have never talked while at school.They gave me many good friends. So I immensely thank them for that.

But what to do if that little bliss is used as a curse? They are made to bring people closer. To enhance friendship , to make the world smaller. But what when someone misuses these things? Somebody hacked my account when I was in my 3rd year. I didnt know who and y? I restored it to normal though. Many of my friends got their fake profiles with their names on it. A few years later somebody used the pic of my best friend in a fake profile. Despite of repeatedly reporting  it resulted nil. I was going through the various help forums . I found many such similar cases with even more dangerous outcomes. Somebody used a girl's picture in a fake profile and has abused her,tried to do cyber crimes . Not only girls even boys were not spared. I guess  search engines are also full up with these type of questions. And they too were turned down .

I know it is not the fault of the internet nor the Social networking sites. It is the fault of the people who misuses the whole purpose of Social networking and thus abuses people.But there should be some corrective measures for that. Isnt it? If the big IT companies are responsible for their success y do they not take responsibility when somebody misuses? Is there nothing by which we can be helped? How many reports and how many complaints do they need to prove the truth of the innocent?Why is that the security is being questioned everytime? Why is that people are forced to take extreme steps? Why is that nowadays people refrain from Social Networking? 

I wish I could have got the answer and all the people who face these type of problems could have got their remedies..

Impact of the world cup

Its been a week now since India created a history. The impact of that is shown in every Indian in every parts of India. The excitement was tremendous on the day of the India vs Pakistan semifinal. With India's performance I half wished India to win. However that day was memorable. There was an official mail the day before ,to wear the Indian jersey or any business casual just to cheer India. The office was half empty as many had taken the day off. During the lunch many left for their home. When it was around 2 pm somebody shouted India's gonna bat first. I felt nervous. The match started with our cafeteria being a movie theatre as many gathered there. Many gathered in the conference room and watched the match on the projector..We started watching it on someone's system as he just connected via the internet. Our tech support team told us not to call them after 2 p.m. As Shehwag started hitting boundaries everyone started to shout. The office work,the training sesions, the onsite calls all were left aside.. People were not the employee of the company then they were just INDIANs rather cricket loving Indians.
With the first wicket  every one was back to desk losing hope. But the Master Blaster was still there. So the magic continues. I reached home early and of course missed the charm that was prevailing in the office. It was a wonderful game with the Indian teams superb performance. I switched off the television when Pakistan was hitting fours and sixes. But again the shouts of the neighbourhood told me that we have got a wicket. I hurriedly opoened the television to find out. And at last when India did win the madness of the people was just ...... There were fire crackers, music,everyone danced like anythng. Whatever they had with them whether its a plate and spoon or a drum ..they started playing them. Not to mention the lots of forwarded sms saying Jai Hind started coming in that very late hours of night.

The world cup final against Sri Lanka really was something which I need not say. The newspaper said it all. My doubt against the Indian ability was proved wrong. Though Sri Lanka did a marvellous job putting up a high score,bowling well yet the day was ours.I was cursing India when it was 32-2. It seemed India always loses at the end. But Dhoni ,Gautam Gambhir did a fantastic job. The roads were empty ,there was no traffic anywhere,everyone was  glued to the television. The last 10 overs was too much exciting and tension filled. And after the final six  I cant express the impact of the Indians. Every news channel showed it.oooooooooooooooooooooooo WE won. India created a history. Everyone updated their facebook status ,orkut satus and twitter. Lots of pictures were also uploaded.

Actally IT HAPPENS ONLY IN INDIA...Jai Hind.

The Last Letter

It was almost the end of their relation. Nisha had given everything she could have to save it. She loves him so much and cant think of parting from him..But you cannot bind the relations. never... She waited for him to call. To say what he has to say finally. Nisha cried the whole day. "How could he do this? he too loves me a lot but why does he wants to go away from me? did I not love him enough? Had I been a bad girl friend?" .....endless questions keep filling her  mind and the answers were unknown..She was alone at home with nobody beside her to console,she felt like screaming but alas!

She has known him right from her school days. She adored him.He was a brilliant student. Very humble,down to earth ,quiet and a great friend.She could not help loving him and as the days passed by their friendship turned into a relation--a love relation. He too loves her and she is the only person in the whole world whom he loves so dearly. But there were other things too by which he was bound.

At around 2pm the calling bell rang. Nisha opened the door and found a postman. He gave him a letter. On it her name was written with blue ink. The handwriting seemed familiar. She wondered "who on this earth would send him the letter?"She opened the envelope. Inside was a letter written by her boyfriend.

"Dear Nisha

I know what you must be feeling right now. Trust me I am feeling much worse than you. I dont have the courage to say it over the phone so I am writing it. I know u love me much more than I could have loved u. You never asked anything in return. And I  have been  a very bad boy friend who has never lived upto ur expectation.

It is very painful for me to say that I have to end our relation here only. It was the most beautiful relation which has taught me to grow in life. I know I will never be happy again as my happiness lies in u. I know I will never be able to love anyone again as my only love is u. But I cant explain u the situation for which I am saying this. May be we were not destined to be together.

I might not survive long as it is utterly painful for me too to survive without u. I want the very best of u.I wish u a very happy life and I know whoever comes to ur life will keep u happy. Everyone is not like me.

I know u must be thinking that I am a coward. Yes I am a coward. I cant fight with my family. I cant see my mother committing suicide in front of me. No. I love u too much and cant bear to hear anything ugly spoken to u after our marriage. If possible dont misunderstand me. I am being forced to do this. I promise I will never be back in ur life. U will not see me again.

This is my last letter to u. I wish u all the very best for ur future. Be happy.Keep smilling my angel and forgive me.

I know God will never forgive me for what I have done and I deserve that. I deserve to die as its because of me all problems are being created.

I love u  always.

Bye

Raj"

Nisha laid  on the floor crying like anything with the letter clutching towards her heart. And uttered a little prayer "Oh God! Why?Why did u do this to me?"

There are some love stories in life which ends despite the two people loving each other madly. They end because of some unavoidable sequences that accompanies a person since their birth. The  question though still remains...."WHY IS IT SO?"..And the answer.....unknown.

New life

After a much waiting I finally got a job in an MNC. At first I didnt let my joy override other things. But the joy turned into a little sadness as I asked to join in Chennai. Again away from my house I had to live. I somehow made up my mind as we cant get everything together. A sacrifice has to be there..So I packed by bags and set out for a new journey..

Chennai is a nice city.. My office ...nicer.. Proudly wearing the office tag I used to go to the office everyday. My roommates are mostly my schoolmates but never my close friends. We stayed together. The past 4 years of hostel life has taught me a  lot of lessons that I needed now. I became more adjusting to everything. My training centre though was different from all of them. It was in the central part of Chennai. Everyday I had to get up at 6 am and get ready for my office. I had to travel a lot,changing trains twice on my way. After so many years of study here comes another academy and lots of exams.. Oh God! When will these things end..Now we are working ..Still an academy? Still exams?? How many more times do we have to prove ourselves??---A question that was asked by every new joinee.

My batch consisted of 30 people.. At first I didnt know any of them except my best friend Arnab and a friend Amrit. Slowly I befriended everyone. There were many a time when I used to feel bad at the others comments. I always had Arnab to guide me. He protected me from all possible dangers. It was as if everyone fresh passout from engineering colleges and a somewhat similar environment prevailed. Nobody felt like working in an mnc.

Slowly I found out a few lobies has been created. There was one group which consisted of 2 girls and 2 boys. We used to laugh at them as the girls never became friends to others. There was another boy involved with one of the girls but everything became complicated....Its always hard to recognize people's character.

There were 5 people from hyderabad.. Though all of them were very good yet there was one girl who was backdated in every respect.  Sometimes it was irritating in the way she used to react to every words. But nevertheless we were friends.

A group of 2 boys and 1 girl..All of them Bengali--quite nice and all of them used to say in the same place.A group consisting of me,arnab and amrit. There was a nepali boy who had a very good sense of humor,and many bengalis..Most remarkable was Mr confucious...Always confused at what being taught.Never used to understand jokes and people never stopped from pulling his leg.

The academy days were really fun. The andhrites and a couple of bengali boy got chennai itself as their deployment location. We felt nostalgic for them as it was as if the whole batch is going to split and we may not be able to see each other again.

We are still waiting for our deployment. In the while many couples has been formed and of course my best friend too likes someone. But with the end of academy I fear his short love story will take an end.Till then its just enjoying the present not considering the future.

Now I dont want to live in Chennai not because I have any problems but because I want to go back to my hometown. But I am sure I will miss Chennai ,miss my roommates,my academy days...

But Chalna hi zindagi hain.........................................I have still a long way to go..

Emotional Fool

This is what people opine about me ---- an Emotional Fool. A person who cares for the little emotions which nobody cares. Actually my world is very little , I have a very few close friends whom I call my God gifted friends. They do for me like no one does,they care for me like no one cares . It was being taught to me not to expect anything from anyone , not to take every word to ur heart, not to care for emotions... But my question is are these criteria s fit in the case of closed ones too?? Aren't they suppose to know u better than everyone around u? Is it a crime to  speak out to them if anything u didnt like? If it is then whom to call closed ones? If not then y is that they dont take it the way u feel? Why is it that someone's feelings are never understood? Why is it someone is always wrong in saying something?


Probably the only answer is that "This is life". U may be too lucky to have people to understand evry bit of ur emotion or too less fortunate  not to get anyone..Everyone says its all becoz u think so much , u take every word to heart...How does it matter to u ? Why are u being an emotional fool? Emotional fool....To live u have to make sure that u care for evryone's  but also be sure that no one cares for u. Be careful to what to say but dont be harsh or rude if u r angry(this applies in the case of ur loved ones too.as loved ones are very easily hurt and many a times never understand what made u say like that).


If the life involves in an IT sector then simply dont give a dam to anything anyone says. Sometimes I do wonder is it a crime to be an extrovert? Once a friend of mine claimed that by being just a  friend he knows everything about me just becoz i am an extrovert...But I kept on thinking have I done anything wrong so that I need to hide it from people? Many think it to be "not that good".But where is the fault ???


Actually these things are taught in numerous management books,television programs etc. But in a world where even ur loved ones dont care for u  u cant afford to be an Emotional fool..

Looking back at 2010

Time flies by... It was as if a few days back when we welcomed 2010 bidding adieu to 2009. Now its hard to think that indeed another 365 days have been .. The year started with a holiday---the end of semester holidays. My last semester  was about to start and the 4 years long college life was about to end.

We had our last sem classes,hostel fun,fests,parties and then the exams...The first few months just ran by. I suddenly realised that I am gonna miss a huge part of what I am leaving behind.I came here with nothing but going out with a bagfull of memories. Indeed bidding adieu is painful. The hostel days,the friends,the college building ...I owe a lot to each of them.

The next few months went in tension about what to do next,to search for a good job. Again back to studies,back to books,interviews,disappointments and lots more. Even the festivals were not welcomed whole heartedly due to these things.

Ultimately bagging up a good job but alas! had to leave my hometown for a place completly unknown. I ventured into a new life different from the pasts yet my experience helped me a lot. There were many a times when I have thought of going back to my previous life but that is not possible..The new life has given me new roles and responsibilities, new challenges and again  have asked me to fight.

And the year thus ended... Another year started.. Sometimes I like to stay back alone and remember my old days,sometimes I like to live a life of solitude ..sometimes my mind says "give me rest"...but no...I have to keep on fighting,,keep on walking...no time for looking back...And I am sure one day I will have success.

Somebody once asked me "what do you want to achieve in life? u have completed ur studies,job and now family life is left..being a girl what else can u ask for?" I want to reply "When I will be 80 years old I want to look back at my life and smile saying that yes I have achieved whatever I wanted. I have lead my life on my own way.I have seen the life

A new life-- a new beginning

I am too excited to write my blog after so many days. And not a bad day to start at all. Its 1st Jan 2011. What can be better than a new year's  1st day to write about my new life?? Certainly better. My success in getting job has been posted I guess in my last blog. Now about my new Corporate life, about Chennai --- too long story it would be. Though I am a new comer still yet so much things have happened or is happening that its hard to put every bit of feelings in words. About Chennai definitely I would say a complete new environment. Born and brought up in North India, find a lil difficulty in the southern parts.Thats why the news of getting posted to chennai came as a shock to me before.

But what makes me amazing is that when I look into the scenery I find it same as my  own birth place...So I proudly say this is INDIA. No matter wherever we go whatever may be our language ,however may we dress we all share the same thought,same belief  more or less the same food habbit  etc etc.....

My job life is good. Satisfied to get into a good company, but yes I miss my college days. There is a big partition between these 2 lives and its hard to realise and get upto it. Now is the time for responsibility. I should be responsible for anything I do. So even if I dont like anyone I have to stay mum as "Friends and No friends" is the key policy here.

I have not entered the corporate culture fully but yes I am getting the heat. I know it would be tougher if I dont work on these things from now onwards but kya kare.......Somethings are hard to change.

Now I blog on my office portal also. Infact I am the blogging lead of my training batch. But yes cant write personal things on it.So.....

Now many old things also have started taking a different turn.The old relations are changed now. The long closest friends are all very far away,everyone busy with their own life and the contacts become less. Its not intentional,its just the reation to the situation. I sometimes wish I go back to my past life ---not possible I know.

But "This too shall pass"... I have to go a long way,I cant stop ..only keep walking....:)