Saturday, November 13, 2010

No pain no gain

It was a bright Saturday morning. I was surfing the internet checking my mails in the hope pf getting my joining letter. Well the letter did not arrive but a mail arrived which told me that my blog is being neglected.True. I havent been writing since a month.

In one of my blogs I told about my failures and struggle in getting a job.But when that struggle ended on a happy note I hardly found any topic on which I can write. It is easier to write about failures,struggles but its too difficult to write about success. I kinda think bagging a job might look too tough when I am fighting but once I get it its not worth mentioning,as its not any kinda big achievement.So my blogsite didnt have any particular post based on my success.

Few days back I was reading the Times of India where Mr Amitabh Bacchaan said in order to get success u will have to get the pain..No pain no gain. The words are so true..When I was getting rejection from the jobs every relatives of mine were asking me "what do u do now?you have completed your course right?have you got a job?" No matter how many times do I tell them the questions got repeated. And when I did get a job nobody was there to ask.I didnot want to disclose it though as I dont feel like boasting myself. My parents disclosed it to them but I got a lil congratulations.Well maybe thats life. People find it to be fun to tease someone till the time you dont have the proper answer to give them. But when u have that their grin replaces a fake smile. But I am thankful to all of them as it is by pain only you understand the value of something.

I cried,spent sleepless nights,became tensed,worked hard only to get a job. I said to myself" I will answer them the day I bag it.". But no! I didnot do that. I let them go. I forgive them.Some of my friends were also in the lists. I remember a friend of mine calling me every alternate 3 hours on the day of my interview just to know how I fared. At last when I answered his call I was too tired by the whole day's work and tension. He was amused with my voice tone and laughingly asked "What happened?" I answered "I am selected." The laugh stopped. He replied " Wow great. What did the interviewer asked you?How did you answer......"He hung up. Next again he called twice to get the other details..I became annoyed. Prior to the interview everyone was asking me "how is your preparation going?" And after the job it was "Have you got ur joining letter?"Ufffff....questions never end...

But as I said they are not be blamed. They are still in the same phase which I have passed now.
They are feeling the same pain as I was feeling.

You dont get success..you earn it..U earn it by dint of ur ability,hard work and sufferings.
U have to feel the pain in order to get the success.But ALLZ WELL THAT ENDS WELL.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Phonography

I never mastered the art of photography on a manual camera. No matter how much I tried the pics always used be defective. Well the modern technology helped me out. I bought my new mobile phone with a 2 megapixel camera, when I was in my 1st yr at college. I kept on clicking images of my friends at every occasion. Not necessarily occasion but also the very natural pic of day to day life. I remember everyone used to get angry initially at my habbit but later on they used to laugh seeing them. I have clicked more than 1000 photos with my single,small,slim mobile phone courtesy its extremely good camera lense.I love my mobile just because of this thing. From then onwards I became a good photographer as I could click images of anything I like. I took my little mobile to various puja pandal and could capture the minute details of the decorations made.More than anything I treasure the pictures of my hostel life. Starting from my 1st yr till 4th yr I have pics of every occasion be it a lazy classroom,fests,picnics,pujas,treats,outings,exams whatever I have them all. I relive my past moments once I see them.

Probably that is what new technology gives us.No longer do we need to carry cameras at places. We can take our pic anywhere anytime at any angle,any mode and of course at the required level of lense adjustments.I thank the technology as the mobile phone is no longer just a phone it is much more than that.With the inbuilt web technologies we can transfer pictures to our dear ones or even upload them at web.And all this services available at a cheaper price.

Now I am a photographer rather a phonographer..:)

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Alive Dead

The title might sound something horrifying but I assure its nothing of that type. Let me ask everyone a question. Have you ever thought what is the thing in this world which is as much dead as it is alive? we encounter it almost everyday. If not everyday then at least once in a month.Something which is as much living as as it is non living??

The tall office buildings of cities which remain crowded with people during the daytime are as silent as the dead at night.With deserted streets,dark rooms they are just like haunted houses.They are again back to life in the next morning.Well the office buildings will continue to be offices for years to come until and unless they become too weak to be demolished.

What about the historical monuments...The forts,palaces which ones have been the abode of the royals---now a mere tourist spot??

Few months back I had been to Rajasthan. Apart from places like Jaipur,Amer,Chittor I liked Udaipur the best...Because of its marvelous palace. The Udaipur Palace,which bears the history of so many kings and queens right from the Mughal rule till the British and then an Independent India--now is a deserted one which only entertain tourists. I also watched the Light and Sound in the evening which recited the entire story right from Rana Uday Singh,the sacrifices of Panna Dhai by allowing her own son to be killed just to save the future monarch, The Mughal attack,the Johar of Rani Padmavati,the battle of Haldighati and many more.But as the show ended and everybody left I looked back at the vast palace. It had lights but they were nothing as compared to the ones that used to illuminate its courtyard before. The wall where the Elephant fight used to take place has now been reduced to just a simple wall.The palace ground is no longer protected by senas ,the place which housed the animals has been changed to ticket counters.

Though much populated in the morning the Udaipur palace is as dead at night. The generations have passed,people has changed, the rule of monarchy has given its way to democracy yet the palace continues to live its time,the time when it was built.But at night it seems the palace cries on its own as it is now equivalent to a haunted house, the only remains of the kings,the sole symbol of its past.It is as if all the royals have left it alone to face the future India and endowed it with a responsibility to tell the stories of their achievements,culture,architecture,lifestyle.

The long courtyards where all the family members of the royals used to roam is now dark.The lanterns,the magnificent lights no longer glow at night.There are no distinction now between the rooms of the kings and queens.If something is left behind is only memories and some inanimate objects like chairs,tables,dresses etc.

And like the Udaipur palace many other historical forts and palaces have the same story.With the passage of time their roles changes too.Once providing shelter and protection to the royals they now entertain tourists and lead the life of the dead at night.They are then left alone to recollect their past,their glory,their pride.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Umemployed

Here's I am writing this at 2:13 am in the morning.Not because I wish to write but because of the thought that I might feel lighter once I share my feelings,the ones killing me from inside,to the whole world. As my blogs are the presentations of my current mental state this too is no exceptional.

Last night I twitted a promise at my twitter account that once I bag a job I shall write a blog and lots of tweets.I am writing a blog now but it is because of the failure of getting a job.I am so sad today that words are failing me. Its my mind's urge to write whereas the contradicting heart needs to give a pass.

I was angry with God when I failed in the last week.I thought that despite of praying with all my hearts why do GOD always let me down??What will he lose if he grants my prayer??Nothing..But HE is in no mood to do so..

Whenever I sit for an exam and pray to God an inner voice speaks out "look at the others who are sitting here.Everyone is asking the same.Some may need the job too badly.Then how am I to judge whom to select and whom not to? They are also my children as u are.But the company wont b taking everyone.U have to prove urself worthy then only can I help u. Try it..Go for it..If u do well i will help u out or else ....."

And when the results are out and I am disqualified that same inner voice tells me "u didnt put ur 100% .Those who have got it have practised a lot,have worked hard.It is becoz of that they are there today.Dont worry try again.If u fail try even more.U will get it.Dont blame anyone..Blame urself.Dont think there are many who havent got it just think there are many who have got it..try to be in that list..

With this hope I continue to live,the next day will be a new day,a new battle,a new hard work..I will succeed one day..I know I will..right???????

Friday, July 16, 2010

Tension

The word too much associated with me. A thing that can lead to illness. But unfortunately quite difficult to curb it. It is a thing aroused y our subconscious mind. It occurs only when we are uncertain about something maybe results,human reaction,job ...the list is never ending.

As for my case the word goes parallel with my life.I am sure all my friends who would be reading this blog will surely laugh at this thing.They know me to be a person who has tension over everything no matter how small it can be. And I have paid for my tensions too. I used to get too ill and as a result many a times had to miss classes,tutions etc etc.Still today the thing has not left me. I try my best not to be tensed but alas!

I remember the day when my secondary exam results were out.I was so tensed that I could not walk on the road.The exams at school specially the board exams used to leave me all the more nervous.And in college though the thing improved a lot yet didnt go fully.I remember the days when our semester results were declared.We sometimes had no prior information and landed up in amazement and nervousness due to the sudden shocking news.And the job interviews omg! The ones that were held in college was okayish. But outside college...ufff...

I happened to go for an interview at a company's office oneday.I got struck in the traffic jam and it was raining heavily.I was almost dead with my tensions.The more I try not to be tensed the more I become one.Tension seems to entangle me from all the possible sides and is in so much love with me that it never leaves me no matter how much I go away.God when will I be finally able to free myself from it?

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Relations

Probably the toughest of all things in this world. My views may be sarcastic,one sided whatever u may call. But it is the only thing that binds this world other than the gravitational,centrifugal etc etc forces. And if you try to name them it will probably compile a dictionary--dictionary of relations.But the origin is one, our heart..Though we say that heart made relations never end do we really mean it? Yes they do end.End because of our ego,because of our heartbreaks,because of situations,because of...... a never ending "because". And at the end what do we gain---loneliness,sadness,misery. We dont gain anything rather lose a lot. The strong relations never die but they may fade,fade due to lots of reasons basically due to human behaviour. The most sweetest,innocent and lovable relations are the ones which we make without any thinking the ones which may be may not be a blood relation but more precious than that. I will not name them as they are not dependant on names,they are the ones which will stay even if u break them.Human relations are a matter of research as we have to understand people's psychology,their state of mind,situation and loads only then we can get our questions answered--the million dollar question "WHY"?

It is easier to build one,too hard to break it,hardest to forget..But humans till now have not got their all "why"s answered. Why did it happen?why do they hurt?why do they break?why do people go away?Why do I get negligence when I didnt give one?

Only God knows the answer.

The most beautiful,lovable and painful of everything is the relations. It is the one which brings people together,teaches love,sympathy.But leaves our heart shattered when it goes away..
And no one is to be blamed for this. People have their own reasons for reacting like that.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

I too had a love story -- Review

I happen to buy the book " I too had a love story" on my birthday.I didnt know anything about this book beforehand not even the faintest idea that such type of book is available in the market or it is running as a national bestseller.. The name of the book attracted my attention and I felt that this book must be nice. And indeed it was one of the best stories I have ever read. The author is not a professional one rather an engineer and since it was his first book those things were prominent. His writing cant be said as a literary work yet I must appreciate his courage to speak up his story in the way it was and to immortalize his girlfriend through his book. The story was really true with hardly any edition and was indeed "Simple,honest and touching".

The feelings were so real ,the love was so pure that we hardly see this kind of love in these days.In our modern days where the meaning of love has changed a lot and the purity of true love has started to make its place in the old books it is wonderful to see how much can a person love his girlfriend such that even after her death her name will be known by every individual..She will remain alive in every people's mind and thus will their love too.

Ravin met Khushi over an internet matrimony site named Shaadi.com. From there Khushi called up on his mobile and from the simple chats they slowly got engaged..They used to love each other too much..Their marriage was also fixed..And the best part was that their engagement was fixed on Valentine's Day--a perfect day to celebrate love.

But fate has something else in store. Khushi met with an accident..The trauma,the tension which he had undergone at that moment was clearly depicted..Everyday he used to pray for his well being but alas! God took her and he was punished to lead the life of solitude..What an irony!

I salute the love of author Ravinder Singh..The way he has told hos story ,the simplicity of his love,the emotions of all both the families,the pain when he heard the news of her demise,the dream when Khushi came near him before dying----really hats off to him..

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Those were the best days of my life

I have been forced to delete my last blog where I have criticised my college.. I have been forced by no one other than my own conscience. It was probably the last day of my Engineering life that I realised what I am gonna miss the most. It was very strange that on the day I left my home to enter a new phase of my life, I cried the most and also I cried a lot while leaving it.It was hard to understand that these days will never be back again.. All the happiness,fun,enjoyment,laughter will now be a sweet memory.

Actually these college days are so dear to all of us that many people prefer to write down a whole story book. Indeed the four years experience of an engineering college is so much in one's life and the changes it brings so inevitable-- that most of us want to capture those days by writing. In the near future we may never get time to contact our friends,may not get time to visit our college reunions ,those writings will be a fresh reminder of the things that we have left behind.

My college may not have been the best institute, yet I owe to it a lot as it had taught me how to move in life like an independent grown up.From an immature girl who has just passed her school and was not used to stay away from her loved ones,never knew what is "adjustment" I turned to a mature person with more or less an idea of how to adjust with people,what to say and what not and many more. I learnt to do things on my own rather than depend on any one else. I learnt the very minute emotional details of every human being who used to live with me.

I used to curse myself for coming to a hostel.. Now I feel blessed as I have changed a lot due to this --a change obviously for good.I may have faced many odds but those odds taught me a lot. My friends,my juniors and seniors were responsible in most cases.

The four years taught me the true meaning of the word "friend". I was lucky that I have always found a true friend beside me whenever I needed them.One of my friend once said " U will miss these days once u walk out of your college and the experience it is giving u will be required for your entire life".. And it was his comment at my last blog that made me realise my mistake. He was too happy when I finally decided to delete it and write a fresh blog. "At last on the final day at your hostel did u feel that they were not that bad as u used to think" he said happily.

The last day at my hostel was probably worse than the one I felt the day before leaving for the hostel the first time.I was with all my friends gang the very last time not knowing when will the next time come so that we all can be together again.I could not write the comments diary of my friends as it was so painful. My roommate put up a picture of our gang on the wall and I cried seeing it.

One by one we all left crying heavily looking back at our room-- the beds,the posters, the writing on the walls-- everything. I remembered the last song I sang at the college function " Hum rahe ya na rahe yaad ayenge yeh pal". The college which was once mine --I left it to my fellow juniors. Yes it is mine still now and will be in the future too but I will be an ex- student from now onwards.The days will pass by on its own, the college will continue to exist,the students will continue their studies,everything will remain except us. The hostel room will still bear our name but we will not be there.

Today I agree to my elder's opinion that everybody must spend a part of their life in hostel..It is only then that we get to know the world--the places,human nature,the way to deal with problems etc etc... I really miss those those days..

Those were the best days of my life

Monday, March 29, 2010

Accept life as it comes

The world is beautiful for those who gets their wishes fulfilled and the cruelest to those whose dreams are shattered to pieces in such a way that they fear from dreaming further.Actually we all are forced to accept everything that comes our way .If that matches our wishes we are more than happy otherwise we must accept what we get as we r left with no options than to leave the world which again would be a source of agony for our loved ones.We keep on praying to God so that the disasters dont happen but what to do if God Himself is against us.Two people love each other,they dream to be together but what to do when the destiny itself doesnt want that? To whom shall we seek the answer of their guilt? What have all of us done to b forced to abide by the laws of destiny? Why should we accept life as it comes and throws its decisions at us? Unfortunately we donot have the answers..All that we can do or rather forced to do is "accept life as it comes" and suffer.

Friday, February 19, 2010

My journey

I started a journey 4 yrs back.Before starting it I was too upset as I never wanted to go to that place. The 4 yrs have taught me many things..Right from how to cope up with every situations it has shown me the true meaning of friendship. True friends are few but they r like God sent Angels.. But mostly friends are aquintances..least bothered of who u r..They are the travellers of the same path..On reaching the destination they will choose their own course..But only the true friends will answer u whenever u call them.The journey has taught me loads.. Probably it given me loads..I may not be benefiting too much materially but spiritually it has taught me something that worth a lifetime remembrance-- as we had to gauge through the pain in order to know.. May be the future is even more pathetic but the lessons learnt at this early stage of life will surely help me a lot..And with the end of the journey there will be some memories that will only be residing with me..I again will b too upset as I dont want this thing to end..Such is human nature ..Never satisfied with what u get..U r given something u dont want at all and once given u dont like it..But as it taken back u refuse to let it go..

Time waits for none

We always wish some moments stay there for a life time. Sometimes we become too anxious for a day to begin. But the worst part is time moves on its own..It doesnt listen to anyone. As our expected day arrives it brings us all the happy moments we long for. But slowly it comes to an end leaving behind only memories. And on the following day we r again back to our respective works. But the very sense of happiness gives us the hope for a nicer future..With time the way of happiness changes but what doesnt change is the anxiousness. Call it a megre day of simple family outing to the most important day of out life the anxiety never leaves u..The fear of losing something or someone,of something worst happening causes the anxiety to arise. If we think clearly the anxiety never leaves us.. We can let its impact be less but it will stay. As we humans have nothing to do but abide by the laws of the world we try to live every moment of our life be it the happiest or the saddest as the sad will replace the happy times and vice versa.. Just like the song goes "Har pal yahaan ji bhar jiyo jo hain sama Kal Ho na Ho".. So we should live every moment happily,enjoy each moment to its fullest..If it is happy it will make a sweet memory ..if it is sad it will teach us something..

Friday, January 15, 2010

Friends

It is said that friends are the most beautiful gifts that GOD ever give us..Friends are there in every step of our life..Search Google and it will give thousands of quotes on what friendship is.. Friends are of different types--some are close and some are just distant or as we can call them "acquaintance". But does time separates friends? No matter even how strong the friendship may be do they get separated as time passes by? The answer is probably NO. but in reality it can be a YES. And in this world where people have so many other engagements, they never stop before saying " Oh Sorry I was so busy at my work that I couldn't even spare 5 minutes to u." They may devote their time to other not so important matters but will never think that maybe someone will be happy to talk to u,to see u or rather too happy to get ur company.. Thats how life moves on and even the strong relationships like friendships come to an end slowly and steadily.. The thing that hurts the most is that since the friends are so close to us we cannot think of leaving them. But we are left with no options but to let them go. Or else the relation may turn bitter.Should we then stop making close friends? If this is the fate then is it necessary to make anymore friends? and even if made should we bring them closer and allow them to hurt us even more?

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Give me some sunshine,give me some rain

A few weeks before its release the movie 3 idiots have created a nation wise craze.. The tickets are hardly available at any theatre for the consecutive weeks post its release. A really hilarious and a must watch for everyone starting from kids,teenagers to the grandparents--the story revolves round the life of engineering students. It shows the pressures the young generations have to undergo..The large number of subjects, huge syllabus,assignments,projects,placements,family pressure..ufff...the list seems to be endless.And all that things are sometimes too difficult for a young mind. Thats when some chooses to quit by finishing themselves.. So there the song goes "Saari umra hum mar mar ke ji liye ek pal to hume jinedo
Give me some sunshine,give me some rain give me another chance I wanna grow up once again"
The story tells us a different thing ..They teach that the students should learn to increase their knowledge and the success will follow.. And the parents should impose their will on their children,let them be what they want. Just think had Sachin Tendulkar been given a option to sing would he become as successful as he is today? Thats what teaches the 3 idiots Rancho,Farhaan and Raju.. The story is loosely based upon Chetan Bhagat's Five point someone.. The film is entirely different from the book yet there are a few resemblance..
Thus the film tells us a few simple things--study to increase ur knowledge not just to pass for ur exams, enjoy life to its fullest and success will follow. Never fear any difficult situation..Always console ur heart that everything is fine only then u can handle the situation better..
Thus Aall Izz really well.

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