Here's I am writing this at 2:13 am in the morning.Not because I wish to write but because of the thought that I might feel lighter once I share my feelings,the ones killing me from inside,to the whole world. As my blogs are the presentations of my current mental state this too is no exceptional.
Last night I twitted a promise at my twitter account that once I bag a job I shall write a blog and lots of tweets.I am writing a blog now but it is because of the failure of getting a job.I am so sad today that words are failing me. Its my mind's urge to write whereas the contradicting heart needs to give a pass.
I was angry with God when I failed in the last week.I thought that despite of praying with all my hearts why do GOD always let me down??What will he lose if he grants my prayer??Nothing..But HE is in no mood to do so..
Whenever I sit for an exam and pray to God an inner voice speaks out "look at the others who are sitting here.Everyone is asking the same.Some may need the job too badly.Then how am I to judge whom to select and whom not to? They are also my children as u are.But the company wont b taking everyone.U have to prove urself worthy then only can I help u. Try it..Go for it..If u do well i will help u out or else ....."
And when the results are out and I am disqualified that same inner voice tells me "u didnt put ur 100% .Those who have got it have practised a lot,have worked hard.It is becoz of that they are there today.Dont worry try again.If u fail try even more.U will get it.Dont blame anyone..Blame urself.Dont think there are many who havent got it just think there are many who have got it..try to be in that list..
With this hope I continue to live,the next day will be a new day,a new battle,a new hard work..I will succeed one day..I know I will..right???????
