"U are Beautiful"

It was the farewell day of their college. Four years seems to have passed off on a whisk. Nisha,Anju ,Vineet and Akash were very sad as the college will end soon. It seems as if it was yesterday only when they have arrived at the college as a first year, with an emotion mixed with sadness of leaving their home and excitement of getting a good engineering college. They didnt know anyone. Slowly they became friends...rather best friends...

Nisha was smart,beautiful,thin and tall. Needless to say a lot of boys want her but she was not ready to be caught up in a relation..Again she was not the person who can turn down their requests. She had a number of male friends and enjoyed all their help and parties.Anju was a simple girl whose life had nothing special in it. She was home sick. She was average looking , loved to make friends. But to her dismay she was misunderstood a number of times. Vineet was tall,fair good looking. Many girls liked him. Akash was smart too but his sense of humour made him the most popular guy.

4 of them had great time together. Used to sit at the backbenches and laugh at the jokes made by Akash. They used to party and visit many places.Used to participate in evry competitions.Danced together at the college fest. They were famous for their friendship.Vineet had a sense of liking towards Nisha. Nisha too used to take advantage of that. She took Vineet's help whenever she needed specially during the exams. Anju liked Vineet from the first day.She never knew what those feelings meant until she discovered she is in love with him.
In their 3rd year Anju decided to confess her feelings to Vineet on Valentine's Day. She called up Vineet the night before and asked him to meet her at the college seminar room. Vineet arived on time. Both started talking. Meanwhile Anju asked him what kind of girl he like.Vineet replied " I want a beautiful girl, whom I can admire my entire life." Anju was heartbroken. She knew Vineet will never like him. She asked" Is there anyone in your mind" He replied "yes and she is from our batch." Anju knew it was Nisha. She thought"Nisha is very lucky to get him " She smiled. Vineet asked her "y  r  u asking me these thing?" She said "we are best friends and maybe I can get you wht u want." He said "actually I was also thinking of saying these things to u but couldnt undesrtand how to say,how would u react..I mean u r not that type of girl" Anju replied sadly"ya i am not that type of girl" Vineet said"Anju only u can help me in this ..No one else can."Anju said"I promise u yaar I will try my best to give u what u want....Bye for now and Happy Valentine's Day"
She left ... Nobody could see her tears,nobody knew how she felt. From that day onwards she tried to convince Nisha about Vineet. She even left them alone in the classes  and sat somewhere else with Akash. Akash understood everything. But he didnt say much. Vineet and Nisha started to go out together. But Nisha never loved Vineet. She used him to make her things done. Anju tried a number of times to make her understand but in vain.

It was their farewell day. Everyone was dressed in their best.. The party was about to begin. Vineet and Akash was dressed in Black Suit  were both looking very handsome. Anju was dressed in  a whinte chiffon saree  with simple ornaments which made her look like a princess. Nisha was dressed in a blue silk saree witha  backless blouse and a heavy makeup which made her look gorgeous. Every eyes were on Nisha.The party began. The professors wished their students a bright future. There were many competitions,a fashon show, great food ,drinks.....
Meanwhile Anju stood in a corner and started crying.Vineet on seeing it came near her
"Y r u crying?"
"will miss u all yaar."
"we r not going anywhere just the college is ending.Comeon Anju we will keep in touch."
"ya.."
"Bye d way u didnt tell me the girl's name that day.."
"Aahh...ya..u didnt ask also"
"I knew it was Nisha r8?? Well I tried my best to make her come closer to u...any positive result?"
"How can it yield positive result when u r wrong at the very beginning?"
"What do u mean?"
Vineet took Anju's hand and said" I meant that it was not Nisha whom I liked.It was you U mistook it to be her."
Anju said" But u said u wanted a beautiful girl whom u can admire for ur entire life"
Vineet said" Yes I did. And that one was u. U r Beautiful Anju. U r the one who loved me without any condition. Who wanted the best for me. Who helped me with everything. Who cared for me like anything. It was me who was stupid. Nisha is only beautiful from outside.. Her inside is very ugly.. U r the world's most beautiful girl becoz ur heart is very beautiful. That day I intended to mean this only but u couldnt understand. Who can help me in this matter other than u?"
Anju was in tears.. She couldnt believe what at she just heard.Vineet wiped her tears and said softly "I love u Anju..Will u marry me?"
Anju couldnt say anything only cried and nodded her head.

How safe is our Social Networking Sites

I was in my 1st year at college when I first heard of Social Networking sites. I never knew what was Social networking sites meant. I found it extremely interesting and was addicted to it like anything. I communicated with lots of my school friends and even those with whom I have never talked while at school.They gave me many good friends. So I immensely thank them for that.

But what to do if that little bliss is used as a curse? They are made to bring people closer. To enhance friendship , to make the world smaller. But what when someone misuses these things? Somebody hacked my account when I was in my 3rd year. I didnt know who and y? I restored it to normal though. Many of my friends got their fake profiles with their names on it. A few years later somebody used the pic of my best friend in a fake profile. Despite of repeatedly reporting  it resulted nil. I was going through the various help forums . I found many such similar cases with even more dangerous outcomes. Somebody used a girl's picture in a fake profile and has abused her,tried to do cyber crimes . Not only girls even boys were not spared. I guess  search engines are also full up with these type of questions. And they too were turned down .

I know it is not the fault of the internet nor the Social networking sites. It is the fault of the people who misuses the whole purpose of Social networking and thus abuses people.But there should be some corrective measures for that. Isnt it? If the big IT companies are responsible for their success y do they not take responsibility when somebody misuses? Is there nothing by which we can be helped? How many reports and how many complaints do they need to prove the truth of the innocent?Why is that the security is being questioned everytime? Why is that people are forced to take extreme steps? Why is that nowadays people refrain from Social Networking? 

I wish I could have got the answer and all the people who face these type of problems could have got their remedies..

Impact of the world cup

Its been a week now since India created a history. The impact of that is shown in every Indian in every parts of India. The excitement was tremendous on the day of the India vs Pakistan semifinal. With India's performance I half wished India to win. However that day was memorable. There was an official mail the day before ,to wear the Indian jersey or any business casual just to cheer India. The office was half empty as many had taken the day off. During the lunch many left for their home. When it was around 2 pm somebody shouted India's gonna bat first. I felt nervous. The match started with our cafeteria being a movie theatre as many gathered there. Many gathered in the conference room and watched the match on the projector..We started watching it on someone's system as he just connected via the internet. Our tech support team told us not to call them after 2 p.m. As Shehwag started hitting boundaries everyone started to shout. The office work,the training sesions, the onsite calls all were left aside.. People were not the employee of the company then they were just INDIANs rather cricket loving Indians.
With the first wicket  every one was back to desk losing hope. But the Master Blaster was still there. So the magic continues. I reached home early and of course missed the charm that was prevailing in the office. It was a wonderful game with the Indian teams superb performance. I switched off the television when Pakistan was hitting fours and sixes. But again the shouts of the neighbourhood told me that we have got a wicket. I hurriedly opoened the television to find out. And at last when India did win the madness of the people was just ...... There were fire crackers, music,everyone danced like anythng. Whatever they had with them whether its a plate and spoon or a drum ..they started playing them. Not to mention the lots of forwarded sms saying Jai Hind started coming in that very late hours of night.

The world cup final against Sri Lanka really was something which I need not say. The newspaper said it all. My doubt against the Indian ability was proved wrong. Though Sri Lanka did a marvellous job putting up a high score,bowling well yet the day was ours.I was cursing India when it was 32-2. It seemed India always loses at the end. But Dhoni ,Gautam Gambhir did a fantastic job. The roads were empty ,there was no traffic anywhere,everyone was  glued to the television. The last 10 overs was too much exciting and tension filled. And after the final six  I cant express the impact of the Indians. Every news channel showed it.oooooooooooooooooooooooo WE won. India created a history. Everyone updated their facebook status ,orkut satus and twitter. Lots of pictures were also uploaded.

Actally IT HAPPENS ONLY IN INDIA...Jai Hind.

The Last Letter

It was almost the end of their relation. Nisha had given everything she could have to save it. She loves him so much and cant think of parting from him..But you cannot bind the relations. never... She waited for him to call. To say what he has to say finally. Nisha cried the whole day. "How could he do this? he too loves me a lot but why does he wants to go away from me? did I not love him enough? Had I been a bad girl friend?" .....endless questions keep filling her  mind and the answers were unknown..She was alone at home with nobody beside her to console,she felt like screaming but alas!

She has known him right from her school days. She adored him.He was a brilliant student. Very humble,down to earth ,quiet and a great friend.She could not help loving him and as the days passed by their friendship turned into a relation--a love relation. He too loves her and she is the only person in the whole world whom he loves so dearly. But there were other things too by which he was bound.

At around 2pm the calling bell rang. Nisha opened the door and found a postman. He gave him a letter. On it her name was written with blue ink. The handwriting seemed familiar. She wondered "who on this earth would send him the letter?"She opened the envelope. Inside was a letter written by her boyfriend.

"Dear Nisha

I know what you must be feeling right now. Trust me I am feeling much worse than you. I dont have the courage to say it over the phone so I am writing it. I know u love me much more than I could have loved u. You never asked anything in return. And I  have been  a very bad boy friend who has never lived upto ur expectation.

It is very painful for me to say that I have to end our relation here only. It was the most beautiful relation which has taught me to grow in life. I know I will never be happy again as my happiness lies in u. I know I will never be able to love anyone again as my only love is u. But I cant explain u the situation for which I am saying this. May be we were not destined to be together.

I might not survive long as it is utterly painful for me too to survive without u. I want the very best of u.I wish u a very happy life and I know whoever comes to ur life will keep u happy. Everyone is not like me.

I know u must be thinking that I am a coward. Yes I am a coward. I cant fight with my family. I cant see my mother committing suicide in front of me. No. I love u too much and cant bear to hear anything ugly spoken to u after our marriage. If possible dont misunderstand me. I am being forced to do this. I promise I will never be back in ur life. U will not see me again.

This is my last letter to u. I wish u all the very best for ur future. Be happy.Keep smilling my angel and forgive me.

I know God will never forgive me for what I have done and I deserve that. I deserve to die as its because of me all problems are being created.

I love u  always.

Bye

Raj"

Nisha laid  on the floor crying like anything with the letter clutching towards her heart. And uttered a little prayer "Oh God! Why?Why did u do this to me?"

There are some love stories in life which ends despite the two people loving each other madly. They end because of some unavoidable sequences that accompanies a person since their birth. The  question though still remains...."WHY IS IT SO?"..And the answer.....unknown.

New life

After a much waiting I finally got a job in an MNC. At first I didnt let my joy override other things. But the joy turned into a little sadness as I asked to join in Chennai. Again away from my house I had to live. I somehow made up my mind as we cant get everything together. A sacrifice has to be there..So I packed by bags and set out for a new journey..

Chennai is a nice city.. My office ...nicer.. Proudly wearing the office tag I used to go to the office everyday. My roommates are mostly my schoolmates but never my close friends. We stayed together. The past 4 years of hostel life has taught me a  lot of lessons that I needed now. I became more adjusting to everything. My training centre though was different from all of them. It was in the central part of Chennai. Everyday I had to get up at 6 am and get ready for my office. I had to travel a lot,changing trains twice on my way. After so many years of study here comes another academy and lots of exams.. Oh God! When will these things end..Now we are working ..Still an academy? Still exams?? How many more times do we have to prove ourselves??---A question that was asked by every new joinee.

My batch consisted of 30 people.. At first I didnt know any of them except my best friend Arnab and a friend Amrit. Slowly I befriended everyone. There were many a time when I used to feel bad at the others comments. I always had Arnab to guide me. He protected me from all possible dangers. It was as if everyone fresh passout from engineering colleges and a somewhat similar environment prevailed. Nobody felt like working in an mnc.

Slowly I found out a few lobies has been created. There was one group which consisted of 2 girls and 2 boys. We used to laugh at them as the girls never became friends to others. There was another boy involved with one of the girls but everything became complicated....Its always hard to recognize people's character.

There were 5 people from hyderabad.. Though all of them were very good yet there was one girl who was backdated in every respect.  Sometimes it was irritating in the way she used to react to every words. But nevertheless we were friends.

A group of 2 boys and 1 girl..All of them Bengali--quite nice and all of them used to say in the same place.A group consisting of me,arnab and amrit. There was a nepali boy who had a very good sense of humor,and many bengalis..Most remarkable was Mr confucious...Always confused at what being taught.Never used to understand jokes and people never stopped from pulling his leg.

The academy days were really fun. The andhrites and a couple of bengali boy got chennai itself as their deployment location. We felt nostalgic for them as it was as if the whole batch is going to split and we may not be able to see each other again.

We are still waiting for our deployment. In the while many couples has been formed and of course my best friend too likes someone. But with the end of academy I fear his short love story will take an end.Till then its just enjoying the present not considering the future.

Now I dont want to live in Chennai not because I have any problems but because I want to go back to my hometown. But I am sure I will miss Chennai ,miss my roommates,my academy days...

But Chalna hi zindagi hain.........................................I have still a long way to go..

Emotional Fool

This is what people opine about me ---- an Emotional Fool. A person who cares for the little emotions which nobody cares. Actually my world is very little , I have a very few close friends whom I call my God gifted friends. They do for me like no one does,they care for me like no one cares . It was being taught to me not to expect anything from anyone , not to take every word to ur heart, not to care for emotions... But my question is are these criteria s fit in the case of closed ones too?? Aren't they suppose to know u better than everyone around u? Is it a crime to  speak out to them if anything u didnt like? If it is then whom to call closed ones? If not then y is that they dont take it the way u feel? Why is it that someone's feelings are never understood? Why is it someone is always wrong in saying something?


Probably the only answer is that "This is life". U may be too lucky to have people to understand evry bit of ur emotion or too less fortunate  not to get anyone..Everyone says its all becoz u think so much , u take every word to heart...How does it matter to u ? Why are u being an emotional fool? Emotional fool....To live u have to make sure that u care for evryone's  but also be sure that no one cares for u. Be careful to what to say but dont be harsh or rude if u r angry(this applies in the case of ur loved ones too.as loved ones are very easily hurt and many a times never understand what made u say like that).


If the life involves in an IT sector then simply dont give a dam to anything anyone says. Sometimes I do wonder is it a crime to be an extrovert? Once a friend of mine claimed that by being just a  friend he knows everything about me just becoz i am an extrovert...But I kept on thinking have I done anything wrong so that I need to hide it from people? Many think it to be "not that good".But where is the fault ???


Actually these things are taught in numerous management books,television programs etc. But in a world where even ur loved ones dont care for u  u cant afford to be an Emotional fool..

Looking back at 2010

Time flies by... It was as if a few days back when we welcomed 2010 bidding adieu to 2009. Now its hard to think that indeed another 365 days have been .. The year started with a holiday---the end of semester holidays. My last semester  was about to start and the 4 years long college life was about to end.

We had our last sem classes,hostel fun,fests,parties and then the exams...The first few months just ran by. I suddenly realised that I am gonna miss a huge part of what I am leaving behind.I came here with nothing but going out with a bagfull of memories. Indeed bidding adieu is painful. The hostel days,the friends,the college building ...I owe a lot to each of them.

The next few months went in tension about what to do next,to search for a good job. Again back to studies,back to books,interviews,disappointments and lots more. Even the festivals were not welcomed whole heartedly due to these things.

Ultimately bagging up a good job but alas! had to leave my hometown for a place completly unknown. I ventured into a new life different from the pasts yet my experience helped me a lot. There were many a times when I have thought of going back to my previous life but that is not possible..The new life has given me new roles and responsibilities, new challenges and again  have asked me to fight.

And the year thus ended... Another year started.. Sometimes I like to stay back alone and remember my old days,sometimes I like to live a life of solitude ..sometimes my mind says "give me rest"...but no...I have to keep on fighting,,keep on walking...no time for looking back...And I am sure one day I will have success.

Somebody once asked me "what do you want to achieve in life? u have completed ur studies,job and now family life is left..being a girl what else can u ask for?" I want to reply "When I will be 80 years old I want to look back at my life and smile saying that yes I have achieved whatever I wanted. I have lead my life on my own way.I have seen the life