Love thyself first

The door of Heaven cracked open as I glided inside. There in front of me stood GOD himself.
"Hello Nita. How are you?" he asked. "Where am I?" I countered. " You are about to enter Hell"

"Why so? What have I done?" I  asked
"I kept you in heaven for 22 years. You came out of it willingly. Now its time to visit Hell."
"You must me joking  God as I was in Hell not in Heaven. My parents didnt love me, my boyfriend ditched me , my friends parted ways and you call it a Heaven?"

God smiled and said "Let me show you the picture I had drawn for your future"

And he showed me sitting in a posh office , holding an important position, a loving husband, 2 kids and my parents who are always praying for my well being.

"Now let me show you the picture at your home now"

And I saw my mother inconsolable. My father is silent. My little sister is crying in front of my picture and there is Nitish, my boyfriend happily engaged to another girl saying to his friends "Nita was a failure. She committed suicide as she cannot accept defeat. She has to win."
 To this my best friend Sonal replied "I know her since childhood. She is selfish. She didnt think about her parents."

Tears rolled down my cheek as I turned away. God asked me "So you committed suicide for Nitish who called you a failure. For friends like Sonal,Neha etc who called you selfish. They did not  understand your pain."

"And still you called it a Heaven" pat came my reply.

But God never stops smiling. "Yes it was a Heaven. You know why? Because I gave you to choose. Had you chosen anyone else as your boyfriend, he would have loved you. Had you chosen your friends wisely you would have been happy. Why did you let them hurt you? Why did you need a friend who dont understand you? And above all why did you not love yourself? I gave you brain to reason. I gave you heart to love. I gave you parents to support and you still didnt appreciate?"

I was about to  answer when my alarm clock rang. I sat upright on the bed. Blimey! I was dreaming. My mother entered my room and said "Happy Birthday Nita. Dont worry I will talk to Nitish and he wont leave you. Be happy now"

I hugged her tight and said "No mum. I dont need Nitish anymore. He is gone for good. I dont need Sonal, Neha, Puneet etc. I dont want any negative people. I need you. I need dad. I need my sister Naina. I love you all. And above all I love myself now. Much more than before