Time flies by... It was as if a few days back when we welcomed 2010 bidding adieu to 2009. Now its hard to think that indeed another 365 days have been .. The year started with a holiday---the end of semester holidays. My last semester was about to start and the 4 years long college life was about to end.
We had our last sem classes,hostel fun,fests,parties and then the exams...The first few months just ran by. I suddenly realised that I am gonna miss a huge part of what I am leaving behind.I came here with nothing but going out with a bagfull of memories. Indeed bidding adieu is painful. The hostel days,the friends,the college building ...I owe a lot to each of them.
The next few months went in tension about what to do next,to search for a good job. Again back to studies,back to books,interviews,disappointments and lots more. Even the festivals were not welcomed whole heartedly due to these things.
Ultimately bagging up a good job but alas! had to leave my hometown for a place completly unknown. I ventured into a new life different from the pasts yet my experience helped me a lot. There were many a times when I have thought of going back to my previous life but that is not possible..The new life has given me new roles and responsibilities, new challenges and again have asked me to fight.
And the year thus ended... Another year started.. Sometimes I like to stay back alone and remember my old days,sometimes I like to live a life of solitude ..sometimes my mind says "give me rest"...but no...I have to keep on fighting,,keep on walking...no time for looking back...And I am sure one day I will have success.
Somebody once asked me "what do you want to achieve in life? u have completed ur studies,job and now family life is left..being a girl what else can u ask for?" I want to reply "When I will be 80 years old I want to look back at my life and smile saying that yes I have achieved whatever I wanted. I have lead my life on my own way.I have seen the life
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Saturday, January 1, 2011
A new life-- a new beginning
I am too excited to write my blog after so many days. And not a bad day to start at all. Its 1st Jan 2011. What can be better than a new year's 1st day to write about my new life?? Certainly better. My success in getting job has been posted I guess in my last blog. Now about my new Corporate life, about Chennai --- too long story it would be. Though I am a new comer still yet so much things have happened or is happening that its hard to put every bit of feelings in words. About Chennai definitely I would say a complete new environment. Born and brought up in North India, find a lil difficulty in the southern parts.Thats why the news of getting posted to chennai came as a shock to me before.
But what makes me amazing is that when I look into the scenery I find it same as my own birth place...So I proudly say this is INDIA. No matter wherever we go whatever may be our language ,however may we dress we all share the same thought,same belief more or less the same food habbit etc etc.....
My job life is good. Satisfied to get into a good company, but yes I miss my college days. There is a big partition between these 2 lives and its hard to realise and get upto it. Now is the time for responsibility. I should be responsible for anything I do. So even if I dont like anyone I have to stay mum as "Friends and No friends" is the key policy here.
I have not entered the corporate culture fully but yes I am getting the heat. I know it would be tougher if I dont work on these things from now onwards but kya kare.......Somethings are hard to change.
Now I blog on my office portal also. Infact I am the blogging lead of my training batch. But yes cant write personal things on it.So.....
Now many old things also have started taking a different turn.The old relations are changed now. The long closest friends are all very far away,everyone busy with their own life and the contacts become less. Its not intentional,its just the reation to the situation. I sometimes wish I go back to my past life ---not possible I know.
But "This too shall pass"... I have to go a long way,I cant stop ..only keep walking....:)
But what makes me amazing is that when I look into the scenery I find it same as my own birth place...So I proudly say this is INDIA. No matter wherever we go whatever may be our language ,however may we dress we all share the same thought,same belief more or less the same food habbit etc etc.....
My job life is good. Satisfied to get into a good company, but yes I miss my college days. There is a big partition between these 2 lives and its hard to realise and get upto it. Now is the time for responsibility. I should be responsible for anything I do. So even if I dont like anyone I have to stay mum as "Friends and No friends" is the key policy here.
I have not entered the corporate culture fully but yes I am getting the heat. I know it would be tougher if I dont work on these things from now onwards but kya kare.......Somethings are hard to change.
Now I blog on my office portal also. Infact I am the blogging lead of my training batch. But yes cant write personal things on it.So.....
Now many old things also have started taking a different turn.The old relations are changed now. The long closest friends are all very far away,everyone busy with their own life and the contacts become less. Its not intentional,its just the reation to the situation. I sometimes wish I go back to my past life ---not possible I know.
But "This too shall pass"... I have to go a long way,I cant stop ..only keep walking....:)
Saturday, November 13, 2010
No pain no gain
It was a bright Saturday morning. I was surfing the internet checking my mails in the hope pf getting my joining letter. Well the letter did not arrive but a mail arrived which told me that my blog is being neglected.True. I havent been writing since a month.
In one of my blogs I told about my failures and struggle in getting a job.But when that struggle ended on a happy note I hardly found any topic on which I can write. It is easier to write about failures,struggles but its too difficult to write about success. I kinda think bagging a job might look too tough when I am fighting but once I get it its not worth mentioning,as its not any kinda big achievement.So my blogsite didnt have any particular post based on my success.
Few days back I was reading the Times of India where Mr Amitabh Bacchaan said in order to get success u will have to get the pain..No pain no gain. The words are so true..When I was getting rejection from the jobs every relatives of mine were asking me "what do u do now?you have completed your course right?have you got a job?" No matter how many times do I tell them the questions got repeated. And when I did get a job nobody was there to ask.I didnot want to disclose it though as I dont feel like boasting myself. My parents disclosed it to them but I got a lil congratulations.Well maybe thats life. People find it to be fun to tease someone till the time you dont have the proper answer to give them. But when u have that their grin replaces a fake smile. But I am thankful to all of them as it is by pain only you understand the value of something.
I cried,spent sleepless nights,became tensed,worked hard only to get a job. I said to myself" I will answer them the day I bag it.". But no! I didnot do that. I let them go. I forgive them.Some of my friends were also in the lists. I remember a friend of mine calling me every alternate 3 hours on the day of my interview just to know how I fared. At last when I answered his call I was too tired by the whole day's work and tension. He was amused with my voice tone and laughingly asked "What happened?" I answered "I am selected." The laugh stopped. He replied " Wow great. What did the interviewer asked you?How did you answer......"He hung up. Next again he called twice to get the other details..I became annoyed. Prior to the interview everyone was asking me "how is your preparation going?" And after the job it was "Have you got ur joining letter?"Ufffff....questions never end...
But as I said they are not be blamed. They are still in the same phase which I have passed now.
They are feeling the same pain as I was feeling.
You dont get success..you earn it..U earn it by dint of ur ability,hard work and sufferings.
U have to feel the pain in order to get the success.But ALLZ WELL THAT ENDS WELL.
In one of my blogs I told about my failures and struggle in getting a job.But when that struggle ended on a happy note I hardly found any topic on which I can write. It is easier to write about failures,struggles but its too difficult to write about success. I kinda think bagging a job might look too tough when I am fighting but once I get it its not worth mentioning,as its not any kinda big achievement.So my blogsite didnt have any particular post based on my success.
Few days back I was reading the Times of India where Mr Amitabh Bacchaan said in order to get success u will have to get the pain..No pain no gain. The words are so true..When I was getting rejection from the jobs every relatives of mine were asking me "what do u do now?you have completed your course right?have you got a job?" No matter how many times do I tell them the questions got repeated. And when I did get a job nobody was there to ask.I didnot want to disclose it though as I dont feel like boasting myself. My parents disclosed it to them but I got a lil congratulations.Well maybe thats life. People find it to be fun to tease someone till the time you dont have the proper answer to give them. But when u have that their grin replaces a fake smile. But I am thankful to all of them as it is by pain only you understand the value of something.
I cried,spent sleepless nights,became tensed,worked hard only to get a job. I said to myself" I will answer them the day I bag it.". But no! I didnot do that. I let them go. I forgive them.Some of my friends were also in the lists. I remember a friend of mine calling me every alternate 3 hours on the day of my interview just to know how I fared. At last when I answered his call I was too tired by the whole day's work and tension. He was amused with my voice tone and laughingly asked "What happened?" I answered "I am selected." The laugh stopped. He replied " Wow great. What did the interviewer asked you?How did you answer......"He hung up. Next again he called twice to get the other details..I became annoyed. Prior to the interview everyone was asking me "how is your preparation going?" And after the job it was "Have you got ur joining letter?"Ufffff....questions never end...
But as I said they are not be blamed. They are still in the same phase which I have passed now.
They are feeling the same pain as I was feeling.
You dont get success..you earn it..U earn it by dint of ur ability,hard work and sufferings.
U have to feel the pain in order to get the success.But ALLZ WELL THAT ENDS WELL.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Phonography
I never mastered the art of photography on a manual camera. No matter how much I tried the pics always used be defective. Well the modern technology helped me out. I bought my new mobile phone with a 2 megapixel camera, when I was in my 1st yr at college. I kept on clicking images of my friends at every occasion. Not necessarily occasion but also the very natural pic of day to day life. I remember everyone used to get angry initially at my habbit but later on they used to laugh seeing them. I have clicked more than 1000 photos with my single,small,slim mobile phone courtesy its extremely good camera lense.I love my mobile just because of this thing. From then onwards I became a good photographer as I could click images of anything I like. I took my little mobile to various puja pandal and could capture the minute details of the decorations made.More than anything I treasure the pictures of my hostel life. Starting from my 1st yr till 4th yr I have pics of every occasion be it a lazy classroom,fests,picnics,pujas,treats,outings,exams whatever I have them all. I relive my past moments once I see them.
Probably that is what new technology gives us.No longer do we need to carry cameras at places. We can take our pic anywhere anytime at any angle,any mode and of course at the required level of lense adjustments.I thank the technology as the mobile phone is no longer just a phone it is much more than that.With the inbuilt web technologies we can transfer pictures to our dear ones or even upload them at web.And all this services available at a cheaper price.
Now I am a photographer rather a phonographer..:)
Probably that is what new technology gives us.No longer do we need to carry cameras at places. We can take our pic anywhere anytime at any angle,any mode and of course at the required level of lense adjustments.I thank the technology as the mobile phone is no longer just a phone it is much more than that.With the inbuilt web technologies we can transfer pictures to our dear ones or even upload them at web.And all this services available at a cheaper price.
Now I am a photographer rather a phonographer..:)
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Alive Dead
The title might sound something horrifying but I assure its nothing of that type. Let me ask everyone a question. Have you ever thought what is the thing in this world which is as much dead as it is alive? we encounter it almost everyday. If not everyday then at least once in a month.Something which is as much living as as it is non living??
The tall office buildings of cities which remain crowded with people during the daytime are as silent as the dead at night.With deserted streets,dark rooms they are just like haunted houses.They are again back to life in the next morning.Well the office buildings will continue to be offices for years to come until and unless they become too weak to be demolished.
What about the historical monuments...The forts,palaces which ones have been the abode of the royals---now a mere tourist spot??
Few months back I had been to Rajasthan. Apart from places like Jaipur,Amer,Chittor I liked Udaipur the best...Because of its marvelous palace. The Udaipur Palace,which bears the history of so many kings and queens right from the Mughal rule till the British and then an Independent India--now is a deserted one which only entertain tourists. I also watched the Light and Sound in the evening which recited the entire story right from Rana Uday Singh,the sacrifices of Panna Dhai by allowing her own son to be killed just to save the future monarch, The Mughal attack,the Johar of Rani Padmavati,the battle of Haldighati and many more.But as the show ended and everybody left I looked back at the vast palace. It had lights but they were nothing as compared to the ones that used to illuminate its courtyard before. The wall where the Elephant fight used to take place has now been reduced to just a simple wall.The palace ground is no longer protected by senas ,the place which housed the animals has been changed to ticket counters.
Though much populated in the morning the Udaipur palace is as dead at night. The generations have passed,people has changed, the rule of monarchy has given its way to democracy yet the palace continues to live its time,the time when it was built.But at night it seems the palace cries on its own as it is now equivalent to a haunted house, the only remains of the kings,the sole symbol of its past.It is as if all the royals have left it alone to face the future India and endowed it with a responsibility to tell the stories of their achievements,culture,architecture,lifestyle.
The long courtyards where all the family members of the royals used to roam is now dark.The lanterns,the magnificent lights no longer glow at night.There are no distinction now between the rooms of the kings and queens.If something is left behind is only memories and some inanimate objects like chairs,tables,dresses etc.
And like the Udaipur palace many other historical forts and palaces have the same story.With the passage of time their roles changes too.Once providing shelter and protection to the royals they now entertain tourists and lead the life of the dead at night.They are then left alone to recollect their past,their glory,their pride.
The tall office buildings of cities which remain crowded with people during the daytime are as silent as the dead at night.With deserted streets,dark rooms they are just like haunted houses.They are again back to life in the next morning.Well the office buildings will continue to be offices for years to come until and unless they become too weak to be demolished.
What about the historical monuments...The forts,palaces which ones have been the abode of the royals---now a mere tourist spot??
Few months back I had been to Rajasthan. Apart from places like Jaipur,Amer,Chittor I liked Udaipur the best...Because of its marvelous palace. The Udaipur Palace,which bears the history of so many kings and queens right from the Mughal rule till the British and then an Independent India--now is a deserted one which only entertain tourists. I also watched the Light and Sound in the evening which recited the entire story right from Rana Uday Singh,the sacrifices of Panna Dhai by allowing her own son to be killed just to save the future monarch, The Mughal attack,the Johar of Rani Padmavati,the battle of Haldighati and many more.But as the show ended and everybody left I looked back at the vast palace. It had lights but they were nothing as compared to the ones that used to illuminate its courtyard before. The wall where the Elephant fight used to take place has now been reduced to just a simple wall.The palace ground is no longer protected by senas ,the place which housed the animals has been changed to ticket counters.
Though much populated in the morning the Udaipur palace is as dead at night. The generations have passed,people has changed, the rule of monarchy has given its way to democracy yet the palace continues to live its time,the time when it was built.But at night it seems the palace cries on its own as it is now equivalent to a haunted house, the only remains of the kings,the sole symbol of its past.It is as if all the royals have left it alone to face the future India and endowed it with a responsibility to tell the stories of their achievements,culture,architecture,lifestyle.
The long courtyards where all the family members of the royals used to roam is now dark.The lanterns,the magnificent lights no longer glow at night.There are no distinction now between the rooms of the kings and queens.If something is left behind is only memories and some inanimate objects like chairs,tables,dresses etc.
And like the Udaipur palace many other historical forts and palaces have the same story.With the passage of time their roles changes too.Once providing shelter and protection to the royals they now entertain tourists and lead the life of the dead at night.They are then left alone to recollect their past,their glory,their pride.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Umemployed
Here's I am writing this at 2:13 am in the morning.Not because I wish to write but because of the thought that I might feel lighter once I share my feelings,the ones killing me from inside,to the whole world. As my blogs are the presentations of my current mental state this too is no exceptional.
Last night I twitted a promise at my twitter account that once I bag a job I shall write a blog and lots of tweets.I am writing a blog now but it is because of the failure of getting a job.I am so sad today that words are failing me. Its my mind's urge to write whereas the contradicting heart needs to give a pass.
I was angry with God when I failed in the last week.I thought that despite of praying with all my hearts why do GOD always let me down??What will he lose if he grants my prayer??Nothing..But HE is in no mood to do so..
Whenever I sit for an exam and pray to God an inner voice speaks out "look at the others who are sitting here.Everyone is asking the same.Some may need the job too badly.Then how am I to judge whom to select and whom not to? They are also my children as u are.But the company wont b taking everyone.U have to prove urself worthy then only can I help u. Try it..Go for it..If u do well i will help u out or else ....."
And when the results are out and I am disqualified that same inner voice tells me "u didnt put ur 100% .Those who have got it have practised a lot,have worked hard.It is becoz of that they are there today.Dont worry try again.If u fail try even more.U will get it.Dont blame anyone..Blame urself.Dont think there are many who havent got it just think there are many who have got it..try to be in that list..
With this hope I continue to live,the next day will be a new day,a new battle,a new hard work..I will succeed one day..I know I will..right???????
Last night I twitted a promise at my twitter account that once I bag a job I shall write a blog and lots of tweets.I am writing a blog now but it is because of the failure of getting a job.I am so sad today that words are failing me. Its my mind's urge to write whereas the contradicting heart needs to give a pass.
I was angry with God when I failed in the last week.I thought that despite of praying with all my hearts why do GOD always let me down??What will he lose if he grants my prayer??Nothing..But HE is in no mood to do so..
Whenever I sit for an exam and pray to God an inner voice speaks out "look at the others who are sitting here.Everyone is asking the same.Some may need the job too badly.Then how am I to judge whom to select and whom not to? They are also my children as u are.But the company wont b taking everyone.U have to prove urself worthy then only can I help u. Try it..Go for it..If u do well i will help u out or else ....."
And when the results are out and I am disqualified that same inner voice tells me "u didnt put ur 100% .Those who have got it have practised a lot,have worked hard.It is becoz of that they are there today.Dont worry try again.If u fail try even more.U will get it.Dont blame anyone..Blame urself.Dont think there are many who havent got it just think there are many who have got it..try to be in that list..
With this hope I continue to live,the next day will be a new day,a new battle,a new hard work..I will succeed one day..I know I will..right???????
Friday, July 16, 2010
Tension
The word too much associated with me. A thing that can lead to illness. But unfortunately quite difficult to curb it. It is a thing aroused y our subconscious mind. It occurs only when we are uncertain about something maybe results,human reaction,job ...the list is never ending.
As for my case the word goes parallel with my life.I am sure all my friends who would be reading this blog will surely laugh at this thing.They know me to be a person who has tension over everything no matter how small it can be. And I have paid for my tensions too. I used to get too ill and as a result many a times had to miss classes,tutions etc etc.Still today the thing has not left me. I try my best not to be tensed but alas!
I remember the day when my secondary exam results were out.I was so tensed that I could not walk on the road.The exams at school specially the board exams used to leave me all the more nervous.And in college though the thing improved a lot yet didnt go fully.I remember the days when our semester results were declared.We sometimes had no prior information and landed up in amazement and nervousness due to the sudden shocking news.And the job interviews omg! The ones that were held in college was okayish. But outside college...ufff...
I happened to go for an interview at a company's office oneday.I got struck in the traffic jam and it was raining heavily.I was almost dead with my tensions.The more I try not to be tensed the more I become one.Tension seems to entangle me from all the possible sides and is in so much love with me that it never leaves me no matter how much I go away.God when will I be finally able to free myself from it?
As for my case the word goes parallel with my life.I am sure all my friends who would be reading this blog will surely laugh at this thing.They know me to be a person who has tension over everything no matter how small it can be. And I have paid for my tensions too. I used to get too ill and as a result many a times had to miss classes,tutions etc etc.Still today the thing has not left me. I try my best not to be tensed but alas!
I remember the day when my secondary exam results were out.I was so tensed that I could not walk on the road.The exams at school specially the board exams used to leave me all the more nervous.And in college though the thing improved a lot yet didnt go fully.I remember the days when our semester results were declared.We sometimes had no prior information and landed up in amazement and nervousness due to the sudden shocking news.And the job interviews omg! The ones that were held in college was okayish. But outside college...ufff...
I happened to go for an interview at a company's office oneday.I got struck in the traffic jam and it was raining heavily.I was almost dead with my tensions.The more I try not to be tensed the more I become one.Tension seems to entangle me from all the possible sides and is in so much love with me that it never leaves me no matter how much I go away.God when will I be finally able to free myself from it?
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